Just sharing

[pelagia]

Love the video! 

I guess it's already been a long winter for you.  Hope it gets brighter soon. 

[willieandwinnie]

  The Wife. That's was sooooooo cool. Thank you for sharing and I pray things are getting better. 

[The Wife]

You know how it goes...up, down, round and round...

But guess what I saw yesterday?   Pink flowers starting to bloom on a couple of trees. 

Spring is on its way! 

[willieandwinnie]

Isn't it amazing that flowers starting to bloom can make you feel better? I cleaned out some flower beds this morning and was surprised at just how much stuff is trying to come up. Take care of yourself. 

[The Wife]

A good dose of sunshine and some pretty flowers do wonders for the soul.  Oh, the long cloudy winter we've had...it gets tiring after awhile but we find sunshine in other ways. 

Number one sunshine in my life = grandson.   

I usually go over to my daughters once a week.  While she's making dinner, I play with my boy.  Yesterday, he was asleep when I arrived.  It was time to wake him up so I laid beside him on his bed and started to sing.   Since I've sang to him from birth, he knows who it is before he opens his eyes.  He's a grumpy boy when he wakes up but when I sing, he jumps out of bed.  "Gramma?  You gramma?"  he asks rubbing his eyes. 

After going to the potty (he's doing well with the training) he asks me another question.  "Gramma, do you love kisses?"

"I love kisses,"  I reply.

And I get lots of them! 

Ah yes, sweet sunshine.  And flowers that are starting to bloom.

[pelagia]

 

[The Wife]

We all know what it's like to watch our spouse's in pain.  And we all know how hard it is on us.  One thing I do is try to find something everyday that brings me joy.  You've heard me speak of the robin.  When she wakes me up in the morning, or I hear her singing in the afternoon, I can't help but smile. I wanted to share one of my joys with you.  Here she is, sitting on the tree outside our living room window. 

[The Wife]

She doesn't look like much in the picture.  I could post it in a larger size but it'll be too big. 

[willieandwinnie]

She looks wonderful to me. I am looking forward to seeing my first robin of the spring. 

[breezysummerday]

Hey, get offa my lawn, er, my snow covered lawn!!







Still winter up here.....sigh

[The Wife]

Now that's a lot bigger than a robin!  Wow!  Snow is nice too, better than rain, rain, rain, sometimes.

Several years back I was camping with a group of people in Jasper, Alberta.  The rockies.  We all decided to take the canoe and go to the other side of the lake.  When it was my turn, a large moose swam out and came close to the boat.  Holy smokes! He was so close, I could see the eye lashes on his eyes. 

[kitkatz]

That was the south end of a north bound moose in your yard! 

[breezysummerday]

Summertime...
Preety sure it's the same guy

[The Wife]

Great shot!  Are they friendly?

[monrein]

I've seen many moose on wilderness canoe trips but I paddle away from them because they can be very dangerous.  They can look innocuous, friendly,whatever then charge you and kill you.  Mostly they're timid and will run away but if it's rutting season, not so much.  They are also fantastic swimmers and can swim right up to you, nice and calm then charge and dump you in the water.  Wild is wild. 
We once saw a wolf follow a momma moose with two calves out onto the river's beach (Nahanni River, Northwest Territories) trying to grab one of the calves.  Suddenly the wolf noticed us standing there and he dashed into the river and swam across a seriously swift current.  Not sure who was the most surprised by this strange scene...us, the moose or the wolf. 

[The Wife]

I've always been afraid of moose and when that big guy swam up to me when I was in the canoe, I held perfectly still.  I don't even think I took a breath until he went away.  It was, however, amazing to get that close to one.

[breezysummerday]

No, not friendly at all.  Some are so tormented by kids,
they become very aggressive.  I have a field backing  my
yard, the moose stroll on by most every day.  Stopped taking
pictures of them awhile ago, but this one was (in the snow pic)
was bucking for some reason and I caught the action too late.

[pelagia]

wow, very cool moose pictures.

[The Wife]

I'm surprised that kids would even torment such a large wild animal.  Whoa.  But then again, kids will be kids.

[kitkatz]

Oh no, kids are kids, but kids need to be taught not to be mean to living creatures, human or not.  I think an angry moose would teach them a good lesson, don't you?

[The Wife]

Oh, I'm sure kids would learn a good lesson if the moose turned on them.    Sometimes, you can teach kids things and they won't listen until they learn for themselves!   I'd hate to see a kid or a moose hurt.

[The Wife]

Is there a mountain I can stand ontop of and scream? 

Oh, those cramps.  Wayne said he had the worse ones ever.  Even though he became ill and blacked out from the previous quinine prescription, he took one last night.  Since he was in bed, he didn't pass out but he's still geting a bit of cramping.

And then there's the gout, the other pains, the nausea....

I don't know how he deals with this on a day to day basis, how any of you who are dialysis paitents deal with it.  Watching it, waking up to screams....it's plain torture.

And so I breathe.  I allow the tears of helplessness to flow down my face, the tears that come from watching my loved one suffer.

I take another breath and listen to the robin as she sings outside my window.  The curtains are open and there is a blue sky.  Oh, blue sky.  How good to see you.  How good it is to see the light dancing on the branches of the cedars, on the fabric of the curtains...

I think I'll just sit here for a moment and take the beauty of this day in. 

[The Wife]

 

I think Wayne's having a reaction to the quinine.  I checked the net for side effects and they match.  He's freezing but his forehead is warm.  He's having chest pains and won't let me call the clinic.  Says they'll make it worse, that they're just trying to kill him, that if I complain they'll take it out on him.  And he's right.  Every time we talk to them, they do make it worse!

What the hell is wrong with these people?!  How many friggen times do we have to tell them things before they listen?  I'm so pissed right now I feel like getting on the bus, taking the pills, and throwing it at them. 

What am I supposed to do?

[The Wife]

From what I found on the net, quinine has been pulled by FDA in the States.  Why hasn't the same been done in Canada? 

What do you do when you can't trust the medical staff?  Who do you turn to?  I could call his neph but that's useless.   

It was only one pill.  Hopefully, this will pass. 

I don't like coming here in such a state but right now, here is the only place there is.

Breathing...

                                                         

[breezysummerday]

With chest pains, you should go to the clinic.  
Every documentation can lead to something.

Please go to the clinic.


(here in alaska, you practically have to have
stage 5 cancer to get medical attention at
the clinic I go to)