GOOFYNINA

[Bajanne]

I was listening to the Paul Potts CD last night and was sobbing my head off as thoughts of Susie came to me as he sang "Time to Say Goodbye".  I miss my girlfriend so badly.

[aharris2]

i grew up with the notion that a man is a man and does not show his feelings ( I know, muy macho) but the other day i found myself crying and thinking of goofynina and icouldn't stop, so i ran her voicemail messages from skype... is just like listening to her all over again

 

Rolando

[okarol]

I watched Sluff and Christy's wedding video the other day and laughed and cried. I was sitting right next to Susie in the chapel and she was making little comments, she was really funny. I never imagined in a million years that the trip to Vegas would be the last time we'd be together.

[Ken Shelmerdine]

Still can hardly believe it. She was everybody's best friend on IHD and I miiss her terribly.

[Sluff]

Miss ya baby, 1month feels like it's been an eternity since you left. 

[MyssAnne]

Ken, you are right. Susie was everyone's best friend. A very loving, giving funny person, who related to ALL of us.

[kitkatz]

I miss you girlfriend.  I miss talking to you on Skype almost every night. You were always there and always had something to say to me.  I just cannot bring myself to delete your name off my Skype  or delete your phone numbers off of my cell phone.  I guess I think you are still there if those numbers are still there.  You would love the new smileys Sluff put on the site.   

Say a good word the the big Man Upstairs for me. You know I don't mean to be throwing rocks with my prayers., I just cannot help it. 

I miss my friend.
                                        

[ILOVEFLUID]

I haven't been on this site in a very long time.  I have been dealing with depression, the failure of home dialysis, permanent nerve damage in my legs making walking extremely hard, waiting for leg braces and a very long and cold winter.  For the first time in the 10 years I have been sick, I wanted to end it all.  I had lost the strength to fight any more.  Somehow I have made it through the last year.  My leg braces arrive next week and spring is on its way.  Goofynina always made herself available to me.  Even when I was ashamed to ask for help, she seemed to know I needed it.  Unfortunately, my pride got in the way and I didn't take the help she offered.  Today, I decided to log on and write her an email.  I started to look through a thread first and noticed she hadn't made any comments.  She always made comments no matter what the subject was and I always looked forward to reading what she had to say.  I got a bad feeling and that is when I found this thread.  I am devastated.   I feel so empty and lost.  She was so amazing and seemed so full of life.  I don't know what else to say.  I will miss her and feel so bad for her family.  They are the lucky ones.  I only knew her through a computer.  They got to share their lives with her.

[rose1999]

I'm so sorry to hear of all you've been through, and just when you were picking up you found out the sad news of Goofynina's passing.  I, like you, never met her except on here, but feel her loss, but I don't believe she was the sort of lady who would want folks to feel down about her going.  Of course she'd want us to miss her, but from reading her posts, I believe she'd also want us to get on with life 'keep on keeping on' as she often said, so we owe it to her to keep smiling (even if we do shed a little tear some days) and keep on helping one another along life's path.  Please don't ever feel ashamed of asking for help, the people here are wonderful, I've asked some dumb questions but never has anyone made me feel ashamed of silly for asking them.

Welcome back to the boards, please stay around 

[Sunny]

ILOVEFLUID,
Hang in there. Things can be very rough sometimes, but don't give up. I'm sorry you found out about Goofynina this way. The fact you felt well enough to log-on to the sight is good news.
There are others here for you too.Hope the braces work out for you.

[Romona]

ILOVEFLUID, just want to give you a hug.  I still want to cry when I think of Susie.

[Mimi]

I hate to hear you've had such a bad year ILOVEFLUID.  It seems it has been a hard year for lots of us on
IHD, and then we lost Susie.  I know you must feel like you are in a free fall, but for all of us, tho, it can't take our sweet memories of Susie.  I hope you will continue to post and let us know how you are doing.  Let us know how
you are doing with your braces, too.
Love, Mimi 

[donnia]

ILOVEFLUID....

[paris]

Goofynina is such a part of our daily lives with all the planning for the walk on Saturday.  Don't know what I will do when it is over because I think I will feel a little lost.  Susie, I miss you so much.  I keep waiting for your smart remarks, your tears, your smile.   Miss you, miss you, miss you

[MyssAnne]

Ilovefluid, we aren't Susie, but we are here if you want to talk to us.  We'll listen.  We're all hurting, and trying to get on with life, and sometimes that's just so darn hard. 

 

[kidney4traci]

I keep reading this site but not posting.  She really did touch me through her humor.  I miss her and so do so many of us.  I never thought I would feel this way for someone I never really met.  But we do get to say alot to each other here, even more than we do to the people we are with day in and day out.  So I guess it does make some sense.    for Susie...

[okarol]

From Susie's niece Joanna yesterday:

Hi Karol,how have you been? Hope all is well. My grandma and I had a question for you. If the unfortunate may happen, we would like to know if there is a way to know that our kidneys would go to someone in the IHD family? I believe I am on the donation list from when I was tested for a match for Sue. But I'm not positive. Is there a way to find out? And my grandma really wants to make sure hers go to someone in IHD. Please let me know any info you can share with me. Thank you and God bless you and yours and all in IHD.

(My response: As it is now, only the living can designate who their kidney goes to. When it's a deceased donor the kidney is given to the patient that has waited the longest, and is the right tissue match. Tell Mary that whoever gets them will be a person very much like Susie, and they will be very grateful. And you never know, it could be someone from IHD, there's always a chance!)

From Joanna today:

Thank you for that info. My grandma is doing ok. She went to San Diego with my mom today and will be back on Fri. She wanted to get away, she couldn't before because she was taking care of Sue. Easter was pretty hard being the first of many holidays without her. Sam is doing ok also. He is going to my Tio Johns tomorrow for a week. Just getting away also. As for my mom and Tio John, they are doing good.

I need to let you know of a dream I had about 3 weeks ago. Its about Sue. here it goes. My cell phone was ringing and I noticed it was Sues' ring tone so I thought it was my Tio, when I looked at the phone it was her cell phone but I knew that her phone was already off. So I answered and the person on the other line was Sue. I asked her were she was and she said, "I'm here". I asked her how she was and she said,"I'm great, happy it is so beautiful here." She went on to ask me to please let everyone know that she is happy and perfect and that she luvs us all. The hardest part of this dream was saying goodbye again. But knowing that she is happy and at peace gave all of that I shared this dream with a sense of peace and comfort also. Please share that with all the IHD family and let them know that they were ALL loved by her so much and she is happy and great.

Thank you Karol for being there for us and continuing to be there and be a friend. Oh also my Tio Sam has mentioned that he is going to the IHD reunion in Oct. My grandma and my mom have also mentioned that they may go also. I'm hoping me and my husband will make it also but it's still a ways away. TTYL and one more question, is there a way to find out if I am already on the Kidney donation list?

(Me: Sobbing my eyes out  ) (Awww J, I know that was Susie calling, it's just like her to let us know she's ok and give us some peace. Damn tho, I still miss her like crazy. Thank you for sharing your dream with us.
This site allows you to sign up online to be an organ and tissue donor in California. http://www.donatelifecalifornia.org/)

[vandie]

Oh thank you Karol, for sharing that.   What a great tribute to our Susie.   She is loved so much.

[okarol]

From Susie's hubby Sam:

How are you doing? i miss you guys. im still here, i got people looking at the house next week, hope it sells, but i will be in vegas on oct 11 to see the family. i would not miss that, so tell every one i said hi thanks karol.

i would love to see you guy's before i sell the house. i remember susie told me that you guy's were planing to come over to visit. you guy's are welcome to come over any time.
sam

[lola]

Everytime I get on myspace I wait for Susie to get on and ask "how's my chica". I miss her and the love she always had to share.

[st789]

Although I have been on this website in brief, Susie was always so uplift and light up the mood here.  I sure miss her posts.  She is in a good place now. RIP.

[paddbear0000]

  Oh, I miss her so much! Her family is so kind!

[paris]

Thank you Okarol for sharing with us.  Joanna's had me in tears.  You are so right, Susie would want us all to know she is good and everything is beautiful.  She has such a loving family.  I am hoping many of them come to Vegas.  It would be wonderful.  And looking forward to seeing Sam again.

[kidney4traci]

  That was a tear jerker!  But thanks for sharing.  What a wonderful group!

[MyssAnne]

oh my. That is so like Susie to do that. I'm weepy too, having read it. And to read how Sam is doing as well,
man, to be able to think of you guys after his loss, what a great guy! We already knew that, he was Susie's husband after all!