Random Depression....again

[pagandialysis]

Today was amazing. I felt great. I got up, I went and knocked out the shopping list my wife gave me. I was out on my own, driving around the city. I felt normal again. Like I could actually do things. I came home, I put stuff away, cleaned the kitchen, and then cleaned out the car. I felt so amazing. There was point where a song on the radio made me think about my dreams and how they were destroyed by the illness but I let that go. I tried to push it out of my mind. Then I went to see how my wife was doing. She is layed up with kidney stones again. When I entered the room she asked me about making a living will. Suddenly, reality came crashing down on me. This wasn't going to last, I would be in the chair tomorrow, my whole day would be shot and there was even the possibility of feeling bad the next day. A feeling of overwhelming dread just slammed me in the face. 

[Traveller1947]

No words of mine will comfort you, pagan, but  know that I feel for you and your lost dreams.

[jeannea]

I'm so sorry the good feeling didn't last longer. I understand depression. Hold on to what you can.

[JustDee]

Reality can be crushing .... just know that you are not alone!!!

[willowtreewren]

 

I wish that our support would be enough to lift you up. I realize that it isn't, but that is all that we can give. 

I hope things look up for you again.

Aleta

[Whamo]

We've all been there.  I just hang in there for the good times.   

[billybags]

You have had a good day, look forward to other days.

[lmunchkin]

    to you. It can be a bit "Heavy" sometimes.  Tomorrow is another day!

lmunchkin
 

[fearless]

Oh man, I know EXACTLY what you are feeling.

that's all I can say.  because it's so F*****G bad

thank you for writing because every time I can think about the fact that another person knows this feeling, I feel a little bit better