I am not the type of person to sit around feeling sorry for myself. But lately all I want to do is cry. This weepy person is not me!! yes I'm taking all my meds. Haven't had a chance to talk to the neph yet. Next week he'll be at the center. And I know we go through these stages. and I'm probably in the "grieving stage" but knowing this is not helping me. And the problems with my fistula isn't helping either. I think I need a hug. Why is it that when they pull more fluid off you the more and harder the cramps are? My kidneys still produce some urine. So some times I pee more than others and it affects how much they have to pull to get to dry weight. Not only do I have muscle cramps, but my B/P bottoms out so they end up putting back some of the fluid they just pulled off and I'm having cramps because of Does this make any sense at all?