may was my last post

Hi all, The past 3 months have been just brutal. My Father pasted away and I had a number of medical problems. They started with my right ring finger. I got a little cut that would not heal and then got infected. The Doc decided to cut out half the nail with hopes that the infection which was underneath it would drain. Instead it just created a bigger wound that would not heal and so on 4/30/09 they cut the finger off above the middle knuckle. At the same time this was going on I started to get, after many different diagnoses, a case of Epididymitis (inflammation of the scrotum) It was the most painful thing I ever went through. I could not lay down or back the only time the pain would slow was when I sat up. So I never got any sleep I would ride around the house all night just to try and keep the pain at bay. They put me on just about every pain pill there is all the way up to a time release morphine pill. I wound up overdosing on them. I took one and felt no relief so I took another. Well both kicked in and I was kicked in the a.. I was falling out of my electric chair every where, out on the driveway in the kitchen coming down my ramps and so on. I wound up puking my guts out and had to go to the hospital. Also for some reason I could not lay back in my dialysis chair. I would get hooked up and the pain would start ooh would it start. I could only sit up for it to be not so bad but then my BP would drop and the techs where trying to make me lay back but I wouldn't. I wound up cutting my treatments short every time. I just told them to take me off. So now I am losing time at dialysis with no end in sight. To make matters worse I started to develop a urinary tract problem which was not allowing me to pee regular. What urine I make was backing up and cause bacteria to continue to inflame the epididmytis so the pain continued and all I did was live on pain pills I was so out of it all the time. I finally had surgery on the urinary tract and slowly all that went away. back to the finger this whole time the finger was not healing and was always infected and painful. They put me on IV vancomycin (antibiotic very powerful) which was given M-W-F while on dialysis and I am still on it. So to end my diary of the last 3 months I went to the hand Doc today and guess what...the rest of the finger has to come off. Surgery will be next Thursday. The last thing I am dealing with (ooh come on pile some more on) is a problem with my hands shaking it makes it very hard to type but at least they don't hurt. So there you have it thanks for all your thoughts and prayers know that they mean a lot...Boxman