GOOFYNINA

[KT0930]

I was in the grocery store today and on their muzak was James Taylor's "Fire and Rain". I must have looked like an indecisive idiot standing in front of the yogurt case for the duration of the song because I couldn't focus to make a decision on a flavor.   The problem is, I never got to see her even the first time...I sure would have loved the chance to meet her.



Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Susanne the plans they made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to

I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Won't you look down upon me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Been walking my mind to an easy time my back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around
Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line to talk about things
to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now

Thought I'd see you one more time again
There's just a few things coming my way this time around, now
Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you fire and rain, now

[Sluff]

Very nice KT. 

[plugger]

I didn't get to know Goofynina well, but I had the impression of a brassy lady with a lot of heart - I can tell she will be missed tremendously.  I love that James Taylor song too - very fitting.

[vandie]

KT,
That was perfect for our girl.  Thank you.

xoxo

[rookiegirl]

I went to the chapel's website and lighted a candle on behalf of Susie.  She and Sam looks so good together.  I really feel as I have lost a close family member.  I will miss her great humor in life.

[kitkatz]

I will not die an unlived life.
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance;
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom
and that which came to me as blossom,
goes on as fruit.

fully alive - dawna markova

[kelliOR]

wow.............
i am incredibly moved by those words, kitkatz...

love,
kelli

[Mimi]

Awesome words on how to live a life.

Mimi

[RichardMEL]

I haven't been on here for a few days.. well maybe a week... and I'm really shocked and feel quite stunned at this news.

Goofy was lovely.. and to think she was just 40.... *sigh* this just reminds all of us how cruel this disease can be and how it can stuff us out LONG before we are due.

My sincere condolences to Sam and everyone else effected by the loss of one of IHD's best.

RIP Goofy. I'll miss you.

[KT0930]

Perfect words for our Goofy, Kit. Thank you.

[petey]

Kit --
I absolutely love that poem by Dawna Markova.  I taped it to the front of my lesson plan book a couple of years ago so I could see it every day.  It's a true inspiration for a teacher, but it's extremely appropriate for Goofy, too.
Thanks for sharing it and letting me re-read it.  Its words and message are strong.

[AlohaBeth]

What amazing words.  If only the whole world lived with such kindness and openness as Susie

[isurvived]

I never knew you, but from what it sounds like, I would have liked you. So many people thought so highly of you-obviuosly there is a reason.

[boclark54]

Rest in Peace Susie.  My condolences to Sam and the rest of her family.

[Sara]

I am so, so very sorry to hear about our dear Susie.     Sam, as difficult as it is for you right now, I hope you are able to take a little comfort knowing how immensely Susie loved you and was so proud of you.  I lost my husband last year (he was the one on dialysis) so if I can help at all as far as lending an ear, or sharing what unfortunate knowledge I have acquired through this process, I hope you feel free to email me. 

Sam, you and Susie, and both of your families, and everyone here on IHD will be in my thoughts and prayers as we all try to function during the difficult time. 

Again, I am so very sorry.  Susie really made this place and was just a beautiful and loving person anyone would be honored to know.

[Redbomb]

God Bless you Susie, you are loved by all.. Until we meet again, my friend....
             
                   Walking Her Home

I've been hearing this song quite a bit on KLOVE Radio Station, and I always cry when I hear it, because it reminds me of June 1, 1980 when my Mother Passed away.  Now it will also serve to remind me of our Lovely Goofynina!

Heavenly Father,

We don't know why you chose to take our beloved Goofynina home, but you do.  All I ask now is that You place your loving arms around those of us who are left behind to mourn the passing of Goofynina.  Lord, especially show your love and mercies to those of her direct family that were left alone by this sudden death.

In the name of Jesus, we pray this prayer.


  to all of you reading this!

[Joe Paul]

             
                 

God Bless you Susie, you are loved by all.. Until we meet again, my friend...

Heavenly Father,

We don't know why you chose to take our beloved Goofynina home, but you do.  All I ask now is that You place your loving arms around those of us who are left behind to mourn the passing of Goofynina.  Lord, especially show your love and mercies to those of her direct family that were left alone by this sudden death.

In the name of Jesus, we pray this prayer.


  to all of you reading this!

Amen

[okarol]

This song was played at my best friend's funeral (friends since the 5th grade-did everything our whole lives together) then played at my daughter's wedding for their bride and groom's first dance. My daughter was named for my friend.  Susie and I referenced it several times in posts----so even today, with tears still flowing and my heart breaking---- "I say to myself, what a wonderful world".

Yesterday I was watching the basketball all star skills contest from New Orleans on TV. At the break in the middle they had a live performance - it was Dr. John singing "What a Wonderful World!" I jumped up, ok Susie, I thought, I know you're there. I was laughing and crying. That girl will always be near me, I just feel it.

[tamara]

I started going through all of Susie's post's tonight (it's gonna be a long night  )  and this one just stood out for me

http://ihatedialysis.com/forum/index.php?topic=556.msg3928#msg3928

I am not too sure which category this should or will fall in but i was thinking,  We are so afraid that this disease is going to kill us but what we should be worried about is some of the small stuff that even healthy people need to worry about, such as, getting bit by a mosquito, contacting the bird flu, getting into a car accident, stuff like that.   When it is our time to go, we are going to go no matter which way,  it isnt necessarily going to be from dialysis people.  I know it sounds dumb but i just had to get it off of my chest.  Don't spend what time you have left wondering when and how your going to die cuz there is a good chance that it may not even be from this disease,  i know the odds are against us anyways, but says who??? NOT ME!!!  I am going to live everyday to the fullest and treasure what time i do spend here.  I am tired of being so down and depressed,  only I can change how i feel about my life and the way i live it.  The way i see it, God gave me a second chance and i am happy He did.  Transplant or no transplant, I am alive today and i look forward to tomorrow... i hope all of you learn to too.

I moved this thread from "Transplant Stories" to "General Disscussion" I think the post deserves it's own thread. It will make a very good discussion.

- Epoman
Owner/Admin

Beautiful Photo too 

[Amanda From OZ]

Thanks for posting that Tamara.

Im going to miss reading her posts. 

[willieandwinnie]

  Tamara. I have been re-reading her posts also. What wonderful humor.

[Black]

I have been here only briefly a few times in the last few months but today I felt compelled to make myself sit down to check on IHD -- such devastating news!  She will be missed by all who knew this bright, vibrant, tender-hearted and funny woman.   My condolences to everyone.      

I do not doubt that she and Bill will greet each other with open arms.

[Psim]

I will not die an unlived life.
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.

That's exactly what Susie's saying in her post that Tamara quoted. I'm going to print it out and try to remember every day the lesson she was teaching with the way she lived her life.

[jedimaster]

I am VERY sad. A great loss....

[mallory]

I am so sad, I hadn't signed on in a while and I just saw this. What a tremendous loss.  Susie was one of the reasons I came to this site, and one of the reasons I stayed.  I can only hope that she is happy where she is and that she's at peace.  I'll miss her more than I can say.

This is so freaking hard, watching the people you really care about go.  I don't know how you stand it for years and years.  I've only been on dialysis 14 months and I just can't stand this.  It is just sooooo sad.