May need to stop teaching

[paris]

I ;had a meeting last week which I thought was my yearly evaluation, but instead heard the words " this is the time to re-evaluate how much you work, or if you can continue to work".  It seems they are worried about my health and how exhausted I am.  Up to this point, the staff has been so extremely supportive. I have been there 18 years. I work with 4 year olds; some with special concerns. It is physical and I am tired when I go home. But, I wasn't ready to hear that they think it is too much for me.  I feel like a old dog that has been kicked one time too many. Not work?  First, I need the paycheck!!  Second, I think it is good to be working.  BUT, if I can't do the job the way it needs to be done; I have to know when to quit.  I am getting tired of all the changes you have to make with this stupid kidney stuff.  Thanks for giving me a place to vent.  One more step in this journey!

[Joe Paul]

That sucks! Sorry to hear it

[Sluff]

Maybe you could work part time as a substitute teacher. Sorry to hear that.

[jbeany]

 

I know how hard it was to admit I was no longer capable of being productive at work.  It's so hard to admit our own limitations have changed beyond our control.

[goofynina]

Paris, wishing you all the best girlfriend, Take Care of YOU girlfriend 

[brenda]

I'm so sorry Paris. Being productive and feeling productive are so important. I'm sure you'll make a new path. Sometimes change is good.

[Jill D.]

Paris...sorry about your "evaluation" results. Working and being productive is good for keeping your mind busy, but can be hard if not impossible if you are exhausted! Has your neph prescribed Epogen/Procrit (or iron shots if you are anemic)? These things may help with fatigue. I wish I could get you a kidney!!!

[kitkatz]

You have the right to work as long as you are not endangering the kids or yourself!

[Jill D.]

Absolutely....do not let them push you out unless you are ready. I think you will know better than anyone.

[Falkenbach]

Yes, I agree with Jill.

What is not clear from your post, Paris, is this: are they simply worried that the workload might be too much for you? Or do they already feel that your performance is not up to scratch?

Now I'm not asking you to answer that question for us, it's none of my business, but it is important to any decision you personally make on the future of your career.

Best of luck with whatever you choose, Paris. I haven't worked since last April and it's been a bit devastating, but I had no choice any more. At least for the time being.

[paris]

Thanks, everyone for your posts.  I have been there 18 years, perfect evaluations every year. They have been a great source of support so far, but something has changed. I don't know if the Board is pressuring the director. It is hard work - we never stop for over 4 hours. You don't get a break when you are teaching!  Yesterday the director had a short staff meeting to thank us for all our hard work and to say I have been given the choice of working 2 or 3 days a week. I had no idea she was telling the staff. I thought this was something we were discussing between us. Understand, this is a private Christian school connected with the church that I attend (for 25 years).  They are worried I will become "sicker" working with the children and wear myself out.  I think were I spend my energy is my business!  They keep repeating that they love me and just want the best for me.  Jill, been on arenesp for 2 years and also have iron infusions. Sure, I get tired - but I am not the only one.  Side note - another teacher is living with breast cancer. She needs time off for treatments, etc.  No, she didn't get the same talk as I did.  The parents that have registered for my classes next year are going to be disappointed. My classroom roster was filled the first day of registration. I have a good reputation and luckily, everyone wants in my class.  Including 3 families on the Carolina Hurricanes hockey team.  I have always loved my job.  Some big decisions to make over spring break. And yes, I know this is against the American Disability Act -- I may have to bring that to their attention. Thanks for letting me have a safe place to vent.  March hasn't been a good month -- is it over yet?

[Falkenbach]

I agree with you about your generalised feelings on the month of March! Only one more day! 

[nextnoel]

They keep repeating that they love me and just want the best for me. 

Personally, my antenna goes up when someone says this to me - it usually means they're going to hurt me, and don't want to be blamed for it!

I agree that it is your business where your energy gets spent, and I wish you the best in figuring out what you want to do - don't get railroaded!

[goofynina]

Hang in there Paris, remember we are always here for you 

[kitkatz]

Don't let them railroad you into doing something you are not ready to do. Do you want me and my big stick down there?  Hehehehe!