He's very sleepy today... I am so worried I am going to lose him and I don't know how to prepare myself.He's been in my life and by my side for my ten years of kidney failure plus two good ones.It's so hard ....
Very sadly, Murphy collapsed today with massive internal bleeding and vets couldn't realistically do anything. Too old for major surgery and even if they tried, if it was a tumor or growth they couldn't have saved him.Making the decision to agree to have him put to sleep was toughest call ever. I held him in my arms, whispered goodnight in his ear as he died.RIP Murphy, you were the best. He had been with me for my entire kidney failure "career" (12 years) and always gave me a reason to get out of bed when the going was tough,
Being told I have to go on dialysis? No problem.Being told PD isn't working, I need hemo, no problem.Being told the prednisone I took for throbocytpoenia wrecked my hip and I need a new one installed, no problem.When my 13 year old dog dies, it is going to cause hurt and tears beyond any of the above.You did right by your dog. Unfortunately, the laws of the country as such that nobody will be able to do right by me if I find myself in the same situation.