Dreams~

[Chicken Little]

Since I started hemo all of my dreams have a soundtrack of dialysis machine alarms playing in the background.   

[goofynina]

Lately all my dreams have had someone from IHD in them, lol, thank goodness they have all been good dreams   all except that one that i just cant get out of my head 

[Sluff]

Lately all my dreams have had someone from IHD in them, lol, thank goodness they have all been good dreams   all except that one that i just cant get out of my head 

Just remember Mina you are a married lady..

[kitkatz]

Dreams of us?? I hope they were sweet dreams.  I dreamt I was late for school today and missed the first bell. I woke up at four this monring in a panic looking for the clock!

[Treasure]

Hi, all. Sluff mentioned a page back about waking from dreaming and seeing smoke. I have had a similar experience-- only I think it's actually fog.  And this usually occurred when my husband would be having one of his "rope snake floating in the air" nightmares and wake me up. I'd open my eyes, and the room would appear foggy. My husband has said he has seen the fog, too. (funny, since hubby has moved to his own place, no more foggy rope snake in my bedroom, hehehe).

I have had two recent dreams about a baby (my boys are all grown now). In the first dream, I was running a race, like a marathon, through a forested area. I was carrying the baby with me and my husband was running behind me, as were my two youngest sons.  I saw ahead of me a long bridge over a river, and there was a building on the shore, just before the bridge. I remember looking back anxiously at everyone behind me, but then I ran into the building and dropped off the baby. I had the sense that it was a safe place to leave the child. I ran back out of the building, and feeling encouraged, I ran on across the bridge, without looking back at my folks.

(I'll share what I think it means in a minute)

The second baby dream-- I was hurrying along somewhere, with the baby, only this time it wasn't a fully fleshed out child, but a little stringy thing that fit in the palm of my hand. It was very weak and gasping for air. I think I was trying to get it to a medical facility, but it was clear that the baby wasn't going to make it. I stopped and tried to resuscitate the string baby, but it seemed that my breath was going to blow the baby off of my hand. The string baby became more and more dessicated-- and then it occurred to me that I was not going to be able to save the baby and it was ok to let it go. It shriveled up in my hands.

When I had the first baby dream, I thought it was brought on by anxiety over my youngest son growing up and turning 18. But  after a while, I began to  thinks  that the baby I left in the building, before crossing the bridge, was my marriage. Between the 1st and 2nd baby dreams, my husband and I amicably separated. When I had the second dream, I was debating whether or not I wanted to hold on to  my marriage until my husband comes to his senses (because it's all his fault, of course, hehehe). But I think the wiser thing, according to my dreams,  is to let the desiccated baby go...I have done everything I can to revive my relationship and it really isn't in my hands anymore.

Anyhoo...didn't mean to write a novel..but these two dreams have been on my mind a lot lately. I have been using them as a guide for conducting myself and moving on.

[George Jung]

I keep having dreams about an ex-girlfriend.  It is never the same dream, more like a continuation of the previous without a direct connection except for her.  I wish they were pleasent dreams but I always wake up feeling bad abut them.  This girl has her own little place in my heart but according to my dreams I have something against her.  When we first separated almost 10 years ago she would be in my dreams almost nightly for several years (mostly good dreams), then I had a break from it.  We reunited less than a year ago for a short time and she cut me loose, now I have bad dreams, sort of like I am seeking revenge, I want to hurt her.  In reality, I would never hurt her, in fact if I would give my life (what is left of it) for her. 

[goofynina]

Is it possible that God gives us these dreams to prepare us in some way for something similar happening in the future?  Oh man, if he does, some of you IHD members............sorry, all i can say is AYE YI YI     

[goofynina]

Someone please help me explain this,  Last night (well, this morning) i had a dream that Epoman was here with me in my home, I was on the computer and he was sitting behind me,  he was explaining to me the importance of an Admin. to check the site each and every day and telling me what to check and why,  all the while, he is sitting behind me and talking but i could not turn around and look at him.     (In reality, I havent been on the pc for the past couple of days (well, not as much as i am used to )

He was telling me what to type, where to go, what to do, i could hear his voice but i couldnt turn around and look at him for some reason.  Then my computer started doing funny things and i didnt know what to do, he kept telling me but i wasnt doing it right so he said "MAAAAAAAAN, YOUR SUCH A NOOB"  MOVE OVER NOOBERS!!!  so i pushed my chair all the way over to make room for his wheelchair and he walked up to my computer and i couldnt believe it,  I said "Epoman, your walking"  he said, dont you know, i am dead, when you die you go back to being healthy.  (In reality, i have been having such bad pain with my Neuropathy, especially when i go to sleep, i wonder every night  if it is true if we go back to being healthy when we die)

He went back sitting down behind me and we are still talking and he begins telling me about Sluffs "ideas"  how he thinks it could work and they are good ideas and i should do this and that to add to the "ideas"  (in reality, Sluff called me on Friday to check on things and started telling me about these "ideas" he is thinking of for the site, i told him he should be enjoying himself and think about that when he gets back, and he said he had alot of time to think while he drives, i told him we would talk about it when he got back and i hadnt thought about it since)

Epoman had seen me rubbing the bump i have on the back of my leg, he asked how long i had it, i told him for a long time but it just recently started hurting, he told me i should go and check it out cuz it could be a blood clot in there (in reality, i do have a bump on the back of my leg that has been bothering me, i have always had it since i have been sick, thought it to just be a calcium deposit, but lately it has flared up and is red and very sore)

Trina was in the kitchen all this time doing work on her finals and Nick was in the room with us, he was a baby and he was in a walker,  Trina brought some food for us to feed him and it was Chinese food from my favorite chinese restaurant, i am still focusing on the pc all the while talking to Epoman and he is feeding Nick,  all of a sudden, Nick starts choking and i turn around and my phone rings (in reality, my sister-in-law was calling me to invite me to The Village, yep, my favorite Chinese Restaurant)

I have not been able to shake this dream all day, i've been trying so much to analyze it, it was just so damn real, i heard his voice, i seen him walk, i just cant explain it, nor can i get it out of my head (and i dont think i want to either)   I just had to share it with all of you, hopefully someone can help me understand why i dreamt this.... 

[kitkatz]

Goofynina I think you miss the Bossman. They say people ont he other side will attempt to communicate with us through dreams.  Just stay open and let it work through you. And come back to IHD.com.

[goofynina]

I am scared to go to sleep, i dont want to be, i want to be able to talk to him again, but i am so freaked of what he is going to tell me, yes, i love him, yes, i miss him but this scares the shit out of me.

[Sluff]

Goofynina, do you remember the thread where if you had one wish and yours was that Epoman would walk again? You got your wish. I mean this in a good way. I think that was Gods way of confirming it to make you feel better about the loss of Epoman.

[MyssAnne]

I had an odd but nice dream about my mother last night. I had been having upsetting dreams about her
lately, so it was nice to have one that was positive. In this one, She is alive and well, as is my father, and we are
'downtown' watching a parade. Where, I have no idea. My son is about 3 in this dream (he's 19). In the end,
she leads us in prayer, giving us a benediction. I woke up happy this morning. My mother died last year and I had
been having dreams where she was just hateful to me, very angry with me. So this dream really meant something
to me in that respect.

[Sluff]

Maybe you are at peace finally with her passing.

As much as I love my Son, I'm always riding him about his immaturity and his don't care attitude. makes me think that maybe I should back off a little. If something happens to me I don't want him to remember negative things. I'm not insinuating that you experienced anything like this but I can relate, possible negative dreams to unsettled things before the death of our loved ones.

[MyssAnne]

Well, you'd be right. I was angry with my dad for putting her in a sh***y nursing home, mad at my mom for being so ill
and being so hateful to my son, and I was mad at me for my kidney failure. She died a week after I started dialysis,
which did not help matters any. I've really been trying to let go of my anger and other destructive emotions.
Sometimes they are hard to let go of though.

[goofynina]

Goofynina, do you remember the thread where if you had one wish and yours was that Epoman would walk again? You got your wish. I mean this in a good way. I think that was Gods way of confirming it to make you feel better about the loss of Epoman.

Yes, i remember it very well but i didnt want him to die.

[MyssAnne]

Nina, you're still grieving for Epoman. It hasn't been that long ago. You're gonna be dreaming of him for quite a while
if it's anything like me with my mother!  I think you'd better have that knot looked at. I agree, sometimes we are
given messages from someone who's passed on. In this case, Epo is warning you, you might be in trouble with that knot.

[goofynina]

Thank you MyssAnne, i have a call to my neph and i am just waiting for them to call me back and tell me when my appt. is.    I fought my sleep last night for fear that he was going to come and tell me something else   but he didnt.  Yes, i am a big chicken. 

[Sluff]

Goofynina, do you remember the thread where if you had one wish and yours was that Epoman would walk again? You got your wish. I mean this in a good way. I think that was Gods way of confirming it to make you feel better about the loss of Epoman.

Yes, i remember it very well but i didnt want him to die.

That is not what I meant. It did sound that way but is not what I was meaning, I hope you understand.

[MyssAnne]

Nina, you have a tender heart. That is obvious in your postings. It does hurt when we have loss, but we have our memories. Think of what Sluff is saying in another way: You are the only one that has seen Epo walk in such a long time. He walked for you! Going back to not wanting to sleep in case you dream of him again, no, you're not a chicken. You just feel that much more. Don't deny yourself the chance to say goodbye to him. Now, have a shot of tequila on me!

[okarol]

I was looking forward to sleeping in today. My son has a baseball game at 11:15 so no need to rush out. I have a friend visiting from out of town, so have been running all over the place. But I woke up because I had a bad dream.

I am not sure why or by whom, but about 75,000 people were being rounded up for execution. I was on the list. Most people seemed resigned to their fate, and I guess I was too, until I heard that death would be carried out by being buried alive. I couldn't believe it, the fear was awful. As people lined up for their fate I began to think that I had to find a way to escape. My husband wanted to help me get away, but when we heard that they would come and take one of our kids to be executed in my place, I realized I couldn't leave. I woke up with my heart pounding and a little panicked.

Weird how the mind works. I don't know what got this idea in my head. I guess it could be this recent article I read. http://dilbertblog.typepad.com/the_dilbert_blog/2007/04/fuel.html For those who want a summary before clicking on a link, it's a blog where the writer asks if we would be willing to use ground up poor people to fuel our cars. He goes on to modify the question to show that at some point in the cost benefit ratio, people might actually consider such a shocking proposal. Its relevance, of course, goes to the idea of live donations in general (because of the risk), but especially when he includes benefits to the people volunteering to be used as fuel (since not everyone is chosen, and those who survive are given great benefits for themselves and their families). This part relates to us paying poor people to donate organs, presumably with the knowledge that some of them are going to die.

Or maybe it was due to eating a Ghiradelli Chocolate Square with Caramel before bed! 

[Sluff]

It was due to eating a Ghiradelli Chocolate Square with Caramel before bed!

[goofynina]

Okarol

Or maybe it was due to eating a Ghiradelli Chocolate Square with Caramel before bed!

Girrrrl, you had my heart pounding,  stay away from the freaken chocolate before bed, my heart cant afford for you to have another dream like this gosh darnit 

[RichardMEL]

ok this is weird.

Last night I dreamed that my kidneys spontaneously repaired themselves... I woke up and had the biggest pee I'd had in ages (seriously!) and I feel great.... In fact everyone at work thinks I've been on the vodka this morning or something... all I had was a glass of apple juice because I am only 1.5 over after a weekend and have dialysis this afternoon...

ah, if only dreams could come true!!!

[okarol]

Quote from a dream website: How common are flying dreams? More than a third of the dreaming population reports having had at least one flying dream. And, if you have one, you're very likely to have more.
So why don't I have any? Ever! I guess it's because I am afraid of heights and falling (I fell out of a big tree when I was around 11 years old.) I think I would enjoy being able to fly, but I wonder if it will ever happen in my dreams. There's a suggested process to help stimulate a flying dream, I might try it. http://members.aol.com/caseyflyer/flying/dreams11.html - on second thought, it looks like too much WORK -- I just need to sleep!

Anyone have flying dreams?

[Jill D.]

Oh yes, I'm glad you brought up this subject Karol! I have had dreams of flying many times. Not so much flying outside in the sky, more like levitating in a room. In these dreams, I just think about about floating (kind of like thinking happy thoughts in Peter Pan) and I become weightless and float/fly from room to room. These dreams are SO real that when I'm awake I truly feel like I could float around if I concentrated hard enough!