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Title: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Rerun on October 30, 2005, 07:57:34 PM

September 5, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my first day on dialysis.  Everyone was so nice to me.  They used my Hickman because my fistula is not “mature” yet.  I don’t know what that means.  I’m not sure what the difference is between the Hickman and the fistula.  Guess I’ll find out.  I like it there.

September 7, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my second day on dialysis.  I didn’t see any of the same nice people today.  I had to tell the new people everything I told the people on Monday.  I didn’t feel that good afterwards.  I didn’t get to watch TV today because it was broken.  I still like it there.

September 9, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my third day on dialysis.  I didn’t see any of the same nice people I saw the first day or any of the same people I saw the second day.  I had to tell the new stupid ass people everything I told the people on Monday and Wednesday.  This is getting old!  I had to sit by some old lady that shit all over the place.  God it stunk!  What the hell kind of place is this!  The damn TV is still broken and the light above me is out.  It must be 40 degrees in there.  But… they are trying to save my life… I still like it there.  Yippee, I get 2 ½ days off. 

September 12, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my fourth day on dialysis.  I guess they just get new people all the time because I never get the same nurse or tech.  I got yelled at for gaining too much fluid.  They had to pull off 6 pounds and my legs were having seizers but the nurse said I deserved it.  The machine has bells and horns that keep going off.  I wish someone would tell me what is going on.  I got a different chair today.  It didn’t have a TV at all.  They fixed the TV in my old chair.  I watch the guy watch it for 3 hours.  I’m not sure I like this anymore.

September 14, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my fifth day on dialysis. The Social Worker sat with me today.  She asked me if I liked dialysis.  When I said “not really,” she told me that I was “depressed” and suggested that I read 10 or 11 self help books by Friday.   She wanted to know about my sex life.  When I told her I wasn’t married, she suggested I read “Sex and Dialysis”….. by Friday.  She asked me how my relationship was with my parents.  I told her they were both gone.  She suggested I read “Mommy Dearest” by Friday.  Wheeew, I’d better get busy.  They had to call 911 for the lady next to me today.  I guess she died.  The nurses said she drank too much fluid and she deserved it.  I don’t think I like this place.  They are going to use my fistula next session.  I’ll be glad to get rid of this Hickman.

September 15, 2005

Dear Diary,

Holy CRAP!  They came at me with these HUGE needles.  They said they were going to poke them in my arm.  NO WAY!  This girl was out of there!  They chased me down the hall and caught me at the elevator.  They still had the needles.  I grabbed one and tried to stab this one bitch in her arm to see how she would like it.  I missed and she gave me a shot.  I woke up in the dialysis chair all hooked up with a ton of tape on my arm.  I felt dizzy and sick.  They said I deserved it.  I HATE DIALYSIS…………

Feel free to write to this Diary....... ;D >:D ;D



Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: cabarle on November 01, 2005, 06:24:56 PM

September 5, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my first day on dialysis.  Everyone was so nice to me.  They used my Hickman because my fistula is not “mature” yet.  I don’t know what that means.  I’m not sure what the difference is between the Hickman and the fistula.  Guess I’ll find out.  I like it there.

September 7, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my second day on dialysis.  I didn’t see any of the same nice people today.  I had to tell the new people everything I told the people on Monday.  I didn’t feel that good afterwards.  I didn’t get to watch TV today because it was broken.  I still like it there.

September 9, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my third day on dialysis.  I didn’t see any of the same nice people I saw the first day or any of the same people I saw the second day.  I had to tell the new stupid ass people everything I told the people on Monday and Wednesday.  This is getting old!  I had to sit by some old lady that shit all over the place.  God it stunk!  What the hell kind of place is this!  The damn TV is still broken and the light above me is out.  It must be 40 degrees in there.  But… they are trying to save my life… I still like it there.  Yippee, I get 2 ½ days off. 

September 12, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my fourth day on dialysis.  I guess they just get new people all the time because I never get the same nurse or tech.  I got yelled at for gaining too much fluid.  They had to pull off 6 pounds and my legs were having seizers but the nurse said I deserved it.  The machine has bells and horns that keep going off.  I wish someone would tell me what is going on.  I got a different chair today.  It didn’t have a TV at all.  They fixed the TV in my old chair.  I watch the guy watch it for 3 hours.  I’m not sure I like this anymore.

September 14, 2005

Dear Diary,

Today was my fifth day on dialysis. The Social Worker sat with me today.  She asked me if I liked dialysis.  When I said “not really,” she told me that I was “depressed” and suggested that I read 10 or 11 self help books by Friday.   She wanted to know about my sex life.  When I told her I wasn’t married, she suggested I read “Sex and Dialysis”….. by Friday.  She asked me how my relationship was with my parents.  I told her they were both gone.  She suggested I read “Mommy Dearest” by Friday.  Wheeew, I’d better get busy.  They had to call 911 for the lady next to me today.  I guess she died.  The nurses said she drank too much fluid and she deserved it.  I don’t think I like this place.  They are going to use my fistula next session.  I’ll be glad to get rid of this Hickman.

September 15, 2005

Dear Diary,

Holy CRAP!  They came at me with these HUGE needles.  They said they were going to poke them in my arm.  NO WAY!  This girl was out of there!  They chased me down the hall and caught me at the elevator.  They still had the needles.  I grabbed one and tried to stab this one bitch in her arm to see how she would like it.  I missed and she gave me a shot.  I woke up in the dialysis chair all hooked up with a ton of tape on my arm.  I felt dizzy and sick.  They said I deserved it.  I HATE DIALYSIS…………

Feel free to write to this Diary....... ;D >:D ;D





October 31, 2005

After several weeks of dialysis, I've come to the conclusion that everbody around me "cheats" on their diets, complains of cramping, and nurses & doctors like to inject sunshine up my ass. People I know have casually asked me "How's my health?", instead of the customary "How are you?" Lucky for me, I am still getting my post dialysis snack consisteing of a chopped tuna sandwhich or chicken salad sanwhich (on a hamurger roll), a little pack of applesauce, and a cup of cranberry juice. The top of the bag has my name on it along with the label "sodium free". The contents resemble something edible, but I just find the "consumables" life sustaining.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Epoman on November 01, 2005, 07:51:26 PM
This was a great idea for a post. Good job Rerun.
Title: Tsk, tsk!
Post by: LifeOnHold on November 03, 2005, 06:51:25 AM
You clearly are depressed!  I recommend you read "I Am So Thankful To Be Alive, Please Feel Free To Screw With My Treatment, Call Me Names And Imply That I Deserve Every Cramp I Get" before Friday!     ;D
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on March 28, 2008, 03:12:03 PM
I read your diary, did you really run down the halls? :rofl; :rofl; :rofl;  Did you write anymore on your diary? I loved it. Is there a book in the works?
Please write more..... It was great..... and so honest..... it's like I wrote it...... :sluff;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Wattle on May 24, 2009, 01:14:35 AM
 :bump;

This diary needs a rerun of its own! 


Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: mcmkids on May 24, 2009, 03:40:42 AM
I think you have truly captured how many people feel! I can appreciate it form two fronts, as the wife of someone on dialysis and as a nurse. We in healthcare are very quick to "diagnose" depression! In my professional, albiet humble, opinion....you are adjusting well!  :cuddle;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: dwcrawford on May 24, 2009, 05:21:13 AM
Fabulously funny.  I loled out loud... as Monk would say.  Write some more...
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on May 24, 2009, 06:03:23 AM
I pm her all the time to write more ---
it is great reading -
I am her biggest fan -
and she knows it -
to heck with working at Sears -- write for Reader's Digest -
( I know Sears was awhile back )
I asked for this thread to be placed where new members would read it -

yes, I am yelling to ReRun --

THANKS FOR MOVING THIS THREAD  -- I AM PM'ING MANDAME AND TINAH TO READ IT

Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: dwcrawford on May 24, 2009, 06:42:11 AM
DON'T YELL AT ME WOMAN!

Reader's Digest would be a good start Rerun.  Then try the Davita Magazine.  It is so funny that they wouldn't be offended at all.  What over Kindey publications are there?
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Rerun on May 24, 2009, 09:35:02 AM


                    :shy;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Rerun on May 24, 2009, 03:15:43 PM
OK here is another Diary entry..... feel free to post more entries.

Dear Diary,

I finally was able to sleep on dialysis.  I have been so tired and was so glad that I was finally relaxed enough to doze off.  Then I hear my name... and I hear it again.... then something bumped my chair.  I awoke to this lady calling my name.  It was a "dietition"?  She shoved a piece of paper in my hand and said it was my "Report Card" and it had Frowny Faces all over it.  She said all my labs were bad.  Then she asked if I was taking "binders" with every meal and I asked her "what is a binder".  Then she hands me a bunch of reading material and leaves.  Man.... I've got enough reading material for a year.  I still don't know what a binder is.  Maybe it is a band to go around my stomach?  I hate that bitch for waking me up . 

Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on May 24, 2009, 03:24:37 PM
 :2thumbsup;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: MIbarra on May 24, 2009, 04:01:42 PM
lol  I hated those frowny face report cards! What the heck are we, 5 years old?
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Hanify on May 24, 2009, 04:06:40 PM
That's hilarious rerun  - I thought it was just me that didn't know what was happening most of the time.  I took binders for a whole year and didn't realise I was supposed to take them with food!  When they said 'take with food' I thought it was just like antibiotics where you should take them with food so they don't upset your stomach.  As it happens I have a really tough stomach and don't usually bother, so there I was taking my binders when I went to bed.  My neph then found out and nearly had a fit.  I mean REALLY!  Someone should have told me ha ha ha.  Luckily my levels were only just getting a bit high when I realised, so I've fixed that now.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: greco02 on May 24, 2009, 05:40:25 PM
 :rofl; :rofl; :rofl; :rofl; :rofl; :rofl; :rofl; EXCELLANT, WELL DONE, KEEP IT UP, WE LOVE THE DIARY....








EDITED:Fixed smiley tag error-kitkatz,Moderator
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Rerun on May 24, 2009, 05:43:27 PM
You guys really should NOT encourage me.....    :banghead;

Dear Diary,

Today a nice man in a white coat came by and asked me how I was doing and I said "fine"..... and he walked away.  I think it was my kidney doctor, but I have only seen him once a long time ago when I was really sick.  Wow, that was nice of him to come see me.  I wish I remembered his name.  I should send him cookies or something.  I'm sure he is very busy but he took time out of his day to stop by to see if I was doing alright.  That makes me feel safe and cared for.  Ahhhhh it was a nice day until I started feeling sick and puked all over myself but I only had to sit in it for 35 minutes. 


                                         :rofl;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on May 24, 2009, 06:31:12 PM
 :puke;    :thumbup; :cookie;  :cookie;    get it    tossing your cookies

 :pics;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Jean on May 24, 2009, 11:59:58 PM
ReRun, you are hysterical!!!! Keep writing, MORE please.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: MandaMe1986 on May 25, 2009, 07:24:12 AM
Haha wasn't able to get around to reading this till today. I love it!
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on May 30, 2009, 10:02:53 AM
rerun - if you have learned one thing ; you have learned to listen to me
- I told you that you are hysterical - to Hell with Sears and that job -
your career is in writing - you have a gift  -- USE IT
and I am your agent and I get 10% or 1% -- I do not care - you need to be in print
and then you could write a very humoress letter to tell Sears to F- off
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: kitkatz on May 30, 2009, 10:50:17 AM
Dear Diary,
      I have had enough of this dialysis crap already.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: dwcrawford on May 30, 2009, 11:51:51 AM
Finished my 5th week (15 Treatments).  I can honestly say that the whole process sucks.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: okarol on May 30, 2009, 11:58:48 AM

Rerun - you always make me laugh!

 :rofl;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Treasure on May 30, 2009, 11:07:45 PM
oh, rerun. you are so  :rofl;   i would totally "wet 'em" but i no longer pee!  :rofl;

i know, i know...excessive use of 'moties.

but that was some funny shit. and yes, i said that.  :sir ken; btw, hehehe.

ps, rerun, can i include your diary on my blog? hehehe...
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: kitkatz on May 30, 2009, 11:25:11 PM
Dear Diary,
    What do you mean I have to come back to this place three days a week?  They told me I had to come back! Can you believe it.  Needles and four hours in the so-called reclining chair, with a mid evil torture device of a blood pressure cuff on me.  I was invited back permanently they said.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Rerun on May 30, 2009, 11:32:03 PM
oh, rerun. you are so  :rofl;   i would totally "wet 'em" but i no longer pee!  :rofl;

i know, i know...excessive use of 'moties.

but that was some funny shit. and yes, i said that.  :sir ken; btw, hehehe.

ps, rerun, can i include your diary on my blog? hehehe...

I would be honored Treasure!  Change it up or whatever you want to do. 

                           :thumbup;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on May 31, 2009, 09:45:41 AM
RERUN IS IN DENIAL

she thinks I am her biggest fan ; her only fan --- well, that is okay because that makes me her smallest fan too ...... :cheer:
but I know differently --- now that you have read her --- you feel like I do --- too bad Jay Leno left --
rerun could be a comic writer for him

she has no idea how great she is .... :yahoo;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: dwcrawford on May 31, 2009, 09:51:02 AM
Reun, I want to print the first part of your diary and give it to my nurse at the center.  She will get a charge from it (well I also want to get what your wrote in "Survey" log.  That one really cracked me up.  We need laughs....  keep making us laught)
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on May 31, 2009, 09:55:14 AM
see there Rerun     Crawford is a fan  and there are others
                            SO THERE -- do I hear requests for talk shows



WRITE A BOOK OR A SHORT STORY AND GET THE MONEY NOTARITY YOU DESERVE    :waving;

Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: dwcrawford on May 31, 2009, 09:58:38 AM
I think you could make more by submitting articles to the appropriate periodicals.  Yours would be a perfect fit for Reader's Digests.  Or maybe try a regular piece in a Kidney publications....  I guess just that tech that you filled out the form for doesn't have a job as an editor or something.  You're dead if he does....
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: kristina on May 31, 2009, 10:22:40 AM
Dear Rerun,
I am a fan of your diary too.l
You write deliciously witty
and give hints
what should and
could be improved.
And you give those hints
in such a very classy
and witty way!
Thanks again.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Bajanne on May 31, 2009, 02:29:28 PM
Hilarious, Rerun :rofl; :rofl;   Please don't stop!!!
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Sunny on May 31, 2009, 10:56:19 PM
First time I read this and got a great laugh out of it.
What a funny sense of you you have.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on June 01, 2009, 03:14:42 AM
Everything you wanted to know about dialysis and were afraid to ask -
a diary by Rerun ( when you become a well known author you can use your real name )
you will laugh, cry and learn tons about dialysis
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: dwcrawford on June 01, 2009, 04:48:24 AM
Dialysis for (and by) Dummies
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Tinah1968 on June 01, 2009, 05:32:05 AM
I LOVE this post.. It is Hysterical.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: twirl on June 01, 2009, 01:38:32 PM
Dialysis for (and by) Dummies

there is your title    half the job is done    just add 200 pages    ;D
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: Rerun on June 01, 2009, 05:13:07 PM


Dear Diary,

Today they sent me to get a "fistulagram".  They said it was "no big deal".  I got there at 8:15 a few minutes early, and waited 3 hours.  I read about all the nice places to travel that I will never get to go.  Some jerk little kid had already circled all the hidden pictures in the Highlights Magazine and the coffee was cold.  They finally got me in and prepped my arm with a cold soulition.  Then he said he was going to put in a local sedation.  It hurt a little... like lidocaine.  Then he sticks this wire in my arm.  That hurt waaaayyy more.  Then he said he was going to inflate a balloon.  I passed out and woke up in the hospital room.  I now have a new definition for "no big deal".

                                            :waving;

Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: kitkatz on June 02, 2009, 10:03:41 PM
Been there, done that!  :rofl; :rofl;
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: YLGuy on October 06, 2009, 07:40:07 PM
I just read this. It is great!  :rofl;
 Aren't you do for another entry?
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: murf on October 09, 2009, 03:05:25 PM
I was quite depressed after a rotten dialysis last night. But then I read your diary and I had to laugh. It bought a smile back on my face. Every time I feel bad, I'll go your diary.
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: okarol on October 15, 2009, 11:58:30 AM

Yes, an update would be great!  :waving;  Hey Rerun!
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: tyefly on October 15, 2009, 12:18:05 PM
  I just found this thread.....    I see that okarol wants a update from ReRun.........   and thats sound good to me too.....

    but  I wanted to say  that I too have done pretty well  on my second time with D..... even if it was only for three hours....   After all the weeks stressing about starting D......  and worring about everything...... it seems to be going good.....  still last hour of sitting is way hard..... I am one of those people who dont sit anyway......  Taking the tape off  seems to be the hardest part.....  and paper tape does not like me.....Silk for me......  I wish it didnt stick so well...... 

     So   Dear   Diary..........  I hope my next session goes just as well......  and I hope that I have successfully removed all the hairs on my arm so the tape doesnt hurt as much..........
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: galvo on October 31, 2009, 12:50:06 AM
Rerun, I have been feeling bloody miserable to-day after starting dialysis this week per a vasc cath. You have just made me laugh. I love you!
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: MissyKew on October 31, 2009, 07:07:40 PM
To borrow a phrase from Oliver Twist.....More Please!
Title: Re: Dear Diary (A look at the first few sessons of dialysis)
Post by: calypso on November 01, 2009, 04:10:24 PM
To hell with you for making me laugh outloud before I completely healed from the extensive damage to my internal oragns from peritonitis.

Only kidding, it doesn't hurt that bad anymore and I could have stopped reading at the first laugh but I didn't want to. If i had read this a couple of weeks ago I would have been in some serious pain though!

Very funny post though thanks fo rthe laugh! :-)