Just need to say this...RANT

[Lucinda]

  When I left the board last September, I had made the decision that I would be unlikely to start dialysis.  You were all so brave about your treatment and I did not feel it was fair on you to stay here with no intention of going through what you were all going through.  In October, my father died of renal disease and I was with him at the time and in the end we were closer than we had ever been and my sister felt the same.  In his will my father left a very distressing letter for me and my sister which basically detailed his contempt and loathing for both of us and how we had both turned out just like our mother.  My mother was a terrific woman who died of cancer five years ago.  He left everything to his girlfriend and her children. It broke my sister's heart and it was then that I realised that I needed to stay around as I am now the only family she has.  The support I had from everyone on this board was amazing but for the last nine months I have thrown myself into work and had very little time for anything else.  Now I have given up work, the first place I turned was to everyone here.  Everyone is so positive and bright and most have a terrific sense of humour.  When I left the board Sluff and OKarol sent me the occasional email and Goofynina contacted me often as did RichardMel. They all let me know I wasn't forgotten which was very touching.  It was such a shock to hear about Susie and it certainly makes you realise how precious each and every person on this board is.  I hope I can be of more support to each and every one of you. 





EDITED: Fixed smiley error - Sluff/Admin

[twirl]

  I hated and dreaded dialysis but I am alive
it is not easy
glad you are staying with us
sorry about your dad
you sound like a wonderful person to me
please stay with us
we need you too

[Sluff]

I'm so glad you are back, I really missed you. I don't know if I can ever forgive you though for making me renew my wedding vows in Vegas.

[Lucinda]

The photos were terrific Sluff.  And I am so happy that Susie got to be there.  She said she had a ball!!  I am glad you were all so happy together and I am just sorry I wasn't able to make it.  I might try and make it to the next one.  I may be able to fend off the inevitable a bit longer. xxx

[RichardMEL]

Lucinda you were always missed and worried about here. I am glad you have changed your mind about Dialysis - it is *not* the end... just a different way of life... but you of all people (I know) won't let it rule you - you're too feisty for that!!! We're all here to help as much as we can as you settle into it. It *is* daunting, but you've been through so much it almost seems that Dialysis will be a diddle to you and you'll be wondering what all the fuss was about

It is very good to have you back.... Everyone needs their friends!!!

 

[paris]

We do need you here.  You gave us all such a good time in Vegas and we wished you had been there.  Susie loved being the bridesmaid with her purple boa and tiara. And Elvis had us all laughing and crying.   It is a wonderful memory.  One thing missing----YOU!    And you are the only one close enough to RichardMelt-my-heart to keep him in line.   Welcome home, Lucinda


I am sorry about your father.  I relate to the will problem.  Mom left everything to our step father.  He has nothing to do with us. We have had to get on our knees and beg for some of her personal belongings.  It is a very emotional time.  Just lean on us for awile.

[rose1999]

Oh Lucinda I am so sorry to hear what you've been through, I hope you can put it behind you (although youI know you won't be able to forget).  You sound a very warm and loving person, please stay this time 

[RichardMEL]

I can confirm Lucinda is very warm and very loving

um... it's winter down here..... 

[rose1999]

I just new you'd pop up here!  You naughty boy 

[RichardMEL]

I have taken on the job of Morale officer for Lucinda.... I am responsible for her (in)sanity from now on!!!

 

[Bajanne]

I am just glad to have you back.  I was wondering where you had gone.  Sorry you had to go through such an experience.  But I am always amazed at the strength of the human spirit to get through some painful circumstances.  You have done the right thing to find your way back to your IHD family.  We are there for you all the way.  Sending caring thoughts your way 

[willieandwinnie]

Glad you are back Lucinda. We are all here for you, no matter What! 

[Ken Shelmerdine]

I'm glad you've returned to us Lucinda, I felt sad when you left. I'm so sorry to hear about the episide with your father. You said you and your sister were closer to your father when he died. Do you think the feeling may have been mutual but that he had forgotten about the letter in his will? Although that doesn't make a difference inheritance wise  it does mean that your father may have really made peace with you and your sister before he died and was possibly too ill to remember the letter.