i quit smoking for nine years, and then, a few years ago i wanted to see if my willpower was as strong as it was when i quit, so i started smoking again. it isn't as strong. heehee
i don't buy the bad rap that tobacco has gotten and i don't believe that the incidence of lung cancer proves anything except that the practice of inhaling gasoline fumes is not healthy, not to mention the poisonous diet that most people survive on. there are far too many cases of cancer that do not involve smoking for me to believe the hype. we seem to have this need for a scapegoat of some kind, in our culture, a 'bad' guy to blame for the woes and sicknesses that science can't effect positively.
of course, i do believe in a certain degree of moderation and we north americans seem to over-do everything. i try to keep my smoking down to five to ten cigarretes a day.
it cleanses the spirit, as the natives say.
i used to drink more beer, as a musician, it was hard to get away from that influence. but now, i have really cut my beer consumption back to a few beers per month.
the thing i find amazing is that my doctors and nutritionist say that i am allowed 'two drinks per day.' which, to me, would make me an alchoholic!
i had one doctor fill out a report on me which read 'he's not much of a drinker...' i thought that was funny, like he thinks of it as some kind of character flaw that i don't drink as much as he does...
as for my smoking, since i've had x-rays and cat-scans, mri's and brain-scans til the cows came home, and the doctors tell me there is no sign of cancer or emphysemia,(?) i feel that my kidney condition will do me in, long before smoking will. and why deprive myself of a pleasure now, at this stage in my life, when so many pleasures have been taken from me?
i may quit smoking some time in the near future or not, but if i do, it will be for financial reasons, more than anything else.
love
~LL~