Hi, I guess I've still been in denial, that I am in kidney failure. My creatinine has been going up and down for years. My nephrologist finally told me, that I needed to start dialysis a month ago, partly because my creatinine was over 5, and I was feeling pretty terrible, so I started. As I've written, dialysis has been pretty awful. This Monday, they took off almost 10 pounds ; I was in agony. I asked my doctor, how could she be so sure, that the 5 wasn't a fluke, and maybe I'm not in kidney failure yet, and maybe, dialysis is not necessary. She told me, that she'd do pre-dialysis creatnine, before my next three sessions. Well, I got yesterday's, and it was 7.2. I guess, I have to accept that I am in kidney failure. I just don't know what creatinine results while on dialysis mean. Do they mean anything? Shouldn't they be going down, because of dialysis? I don't really know what I'm asking, but if anyone can explain it to me, I would appreciate it. Thank you.