Words escape me right now. I don't know if the right words exist for this. I know that if my husband wanted a transplant and was told no I'd be hugging him real tight and telling him how sorry I feel about it and that I'd be there for him in whatever way he needs me to be. Your friends here at ihd are here for you and the group never seems to run out of hugs. You're such a strong and very wise lady, kudos for showing the rest of us that however challenging and tough it can be, life is worth living (bumps and all), simply because as people, WE are worth it.