My pre-dialysis-days have finally come to an end...

[kristina]

Hello,
I have just been told that my pre-dialysis-days are coming to an end...
My 43 years of struggling to keep my kidney function going for another day are finally ending...
... and I have to start the dreaded dialysis very urgently ...
As a "chronic optimist" I was very much hoping - until the very last minute - that my "two little fighters" might recover a little again
as they did in 1971, but it looks very unlikely now ...  and I am finally "in for it"...
I just have been told that I have become an emergency now and perhaps I have been trying so very hard for much too long...
... right now I am waiting for the telephone to ring, because my Creatinine and Urea blood-test-results have suddenly become life-dangerously high,
and I have sadly become an emergency to be put on dialysis as soon as possible...
 
Kristina.

[SooMK]

Wishing you all the best Kristina. I wish your little fighters could have held out longer but what a good fight they have put up. Let us know how you're doing.

[Darthvadar]

The very best of luck!...

Darth...

[MooseMom]

Oh Kristina, I am so sorry to hear this.  I know how hard you have been trying for all of these years to avoid dialysis, and you have done a remarkable job!  You are to be congratulated.  I can't think of anything more that you could have done.

You will be OK.  Since your wonderful husband has offered to become part of a chain, transplant is in your future, so now your task is to remain as healthy as possible so that you can be transplanted as quickly as possible.  Dialysis is just one more step you have to take to stay healthy until a kidney is available.

Please let us hear from you to let us know what your doctors have in mind for you.  You are in my thoughts. 

[Rerun]

You are very self-educated on everything about dialysis.  You will do fine.

Keep us posted.

[monrein]

This is always a very difficult transition time but as others have said you are well informed and will continue to be an educated patient. Thinking of you and wishing you the best.

[cassandra]

Oh dear Kris I'm really sorry that you have to start now, but like all said above: girl what a fight!
You'll be fine, with all your knowledge, and after adjusting to D, and with the outlook on a transplant.

Lots of luck, and love, and 'feeling better' -vibes, Cas

[Jean]

Kristina, I am so sorry to hear this news. You have done so well for so long, I was beginning to think you would never go on D, but here it is. I think once they ( the two little fighters) know they need to give up, it is done remarkably fast. You are not going to have any problems, I am sure, and before you know it, you transplant time will be here. Stay calm and take lots of deep breaths and I just know you will be fine. We are all here to listen to you and how it is going for you and will be anxiously awaiting any news. Take care. Best Wishes.

[okarol]

  You gave it your all! I am sure you'll tackle dialysis head-on and do well. Sending you BIG HUGS!

[Razman]

Wish you all the best. You have put up a great battle .  You have not lost the war , you're just going to fight it another way so don't give up.   

[MaryJoe]

I know you never wanted to go on dialysis, and you and you an your two little fighters fought long and hard to prevent this day. You always take charge of any situation you find yourself in, and I think dialysis will be no different. Same war, new battle. I have no doubt you will triumph again! Keeping you in my thoughts as you beginthis new adventure.

    

[amanda100wilson]

I am sure you will do just fine, Kristina.  Fear of the unknown is usually worse than the reality.

[Deanne]

I'm sorry. Your life is a success story and I know it'll continue to be a success story through this bump in your road. You already know how to handle the worst challenges and come out on top.

[galvo]

Kristina, welcome to the club. We have been waiting for you for a long time! You'll be right ( a great Australian expression )! One day at a time is the way and you keep on top of things and, with your intelligence and enquiring nature, I'm sure you will. I've been on HD for over 5 years now and, despite all that's wrong with me, I feel damned well!. Very best wishes on your new adventure!

[Simon Dog]

Kristina - is IS possible to have a great life when on dialysis.   I thought dialysis would destroy my life, but it hasn't worked out that way.  The biggest sacrifice has been switching from 40 hours/week to 30 at work because of all the time on the machine.

If you are the personality type that can handle it, home dialysis (PD or hemo) can make it suck a whole lot less.

[kitkatz]

Welcome to dialysis.  What a thing to get welcomed to! Good luck as you begin a new way of life. It will take time to develop a new way of living with dialysis. Tackle it head on.
You know a lot already, Make wise choices for you.

[kristina]

Thank you all for your very kind and understanding replies!
It has touched me very much and your kind understanding has helped me a lot to handle the shock much better!
This Friday -  or the coming Monday - I shall get my (chest) access "installed"
and I shall have to start with dialysis the very same day (...I have certainly left it to the very last minute...) .
In a way I am sad about this development, but I am also very happy that my body could last so long
and I shall try my very best to approach this new adventure with positive thoughts...

Thank you all again from Kristina. 

[obsidianom]

Thank you all for your very kind and understanding replies!
It has touched me very much and your kind understanding has helped me a lot to handle the shock much better!
This Friday -  or the coming Monday - I shall get my (chest) access "installed"
and I shall have to start with dialysis the very same day (...I have certainly left it to the very last minute...) .
In a way I am sad about this development, but I am also very happy that my body could last so long
and I shall try my very best to approach this new adventure with positive thoughts...

Thank you all again from Kristina. 

I think you will be pleasantly surprised at how much better you will feel on dialysis .  Ny wife perked up the first treatment she ever had . Then you can focus next on home dialysis as that will even feel better. ASk any questions you have . We have all been there where you are.

[iolaire]

Best of luck.  Continue to keep positive as you were in the past when you described how you delayed dialysis.  If you can keep positive I think you will find dialysis quite manageable.

[talker]

Thank you all for your very kind and understanding replies!
It has touched me very much and your kind understanding has helped me a lot to handle the shock much better!
This Friday -  or the coming Monday - I shall get my (chest) access "installed"
and I shall have to start with dialysis the very same day (...I have certainly left it to the very last minute...) .
In a way I am sad about this development, but I am also very happy that my body could last so long
and I shall try my very best to approach this new adventure with positive thoughts...

Thank you all again from Kristina. 

Strange as it may seem now, you will find that there will be less stress in your life.
Flow with the 'I shall try my very best to approach this new adventure with positive thoughts...', it will be a helpful companion.

[kristina]

Thanks again for all your kind wishes and kind thoughts, it is very much appreciated!
... Over the past few days I had "a little talk with myself" and it made me realize, that without dialysis
my life would definitely come to an abrupt end within the next few weeks ... or days...
... but with the help of dialysis I shall be able to continue my life and - with a bit of luck - I might be even able to continue with my work and career
and that would be absolutely magnificent ! Welcoming dialysis might give me also a chance to "be around"
whilst all the medical research into better kidney treatments carries on ... and who knows what might be discovered...?
... All in all, I shall welcome the opportunity to continue my life with the help of dialysis and hopefully
being on dialysis might "start a new chapter" in my life and this new chapter might "only" involve a few new routines...

Thanks again from Kristina.

[willowtreewren]

Kristina,

you are a trouper. Look at how long you have managed to keep yourself going without dialysis. As others have said, you may be pleasantly surprised at how much better you feel. Carl often said that he felt 10 years younger as soon as he started dialysis!

Keep your spirits up. That is more than half the battle!

 

Aleta

[del]

Kristina, you will feel better once you start dialysis.  Hubby went 10 years pre dialysis and was pretty sick before he started.  That was almost 18 years ago and he is still going strong.  He cuts his own firewood and does everything that he wants to do.  One of the main things he says has helped him is accepting dialysis as part of his life.  He says the main thing is to look after yourself and watch your fluids!!

[kristina]

Thanks again for your kind wishes.
I shall make a point to prepare myself mentally for dialysis
and hopefully my whole body agrees with the new treatment as well
... and hopefully my body will also agree with the new medication
without getting into an allergic reaction because of drug-intolerance...

I shall do my very best to "embrace dialysis" and I shall also do my very best to carry on living
and hopefully I might be having enough energy once again to go back to my work and career.

Best wishes and thanks again from Kristina.

[obsidianom]

Thanks again for your kind wishes.
I shall make a point to prepare myself mentally for dialysis
and hopefully my whole body agrees with the new treatment as well
... and hopefully my body will also agree with the new medication
without getting into an allergic reaction because of drug-intolerance...

I shall do my very best to "embrace dialysis" and I shall also do my very best to carry on living
and hopefully I might be having enough energy once again to go back to my work and career.

Best wishes and thanks again from Kristina.

Kristina, you are an important member here. I want to offer all i can to help you through the beginning of dialysis.  Please ask any questions you have and lean on those of us who are already there. We can help you get through this.