Yes, I'm Back

[paddbear0000]

Yes, I'm back! Thank you to those of you who PM'ed me looking for me. I know I've been away for a while. I've been having a really hard time with my depression lately, I guess since my grandmother died. I went to the Ohio State University Transplant Center yesterday for a transplant evaluation and feel like in one way, that I've had a weight lifted off my shoulders. The social worker I spoke with used to be a therapist and she really helped me out. As she was going through her questions, she asked me if I suffered from depression (duh!) and when I answered yes, she asked me how many days out of 7. I answered 6. My husband was with me and was shocked. I have been keeping the severity of my depression hidden from him. He already feels guilty for us having to move to OH, which is a big part of the problem. The SW talked to us about all of this, and I am feeling a little better.

I'm still dealing with other things, and going to the transplant evaluation didn't help at all either. The transplant surgeon wants me to start therapy before she'll clear me for surgery. I already feel like it's too soon for surgery for me as it is. My creat's still at 3.0. I want to do a preemptive transplant, but I still feel like I'm jumping the gun a bit here! Things are just happening way too fast right now.

Anyway, yesterday, after talking to the SW/therapist, I realized that you guys are actually a big part of my support system. I should never have let this part of my life slide like I did. So I'll be hanging around again!

 

P.S. If this is in the wrong place, please move it. None of the sections seemed right.


Edited: TOPIC MOVED to correct section - Bajanne, Moderator

(Epoman said that if the thread has anything to do with dialysis or transplants, it should not be in Off-Topic)

[paris]

Good to hear from you.  The transplant process can be so overwhelming.  Some days you feel so full of hope, then things go so fast and then they come to a screeching halt.  I am so glad you shared with your husband how you are feeling.  Please keep posting. It helps just to put your feelings into words and then hit "post".  We will all be here to help.

[rose1999]

Welcome back  .  I hope the depression will slowly lift for you, I've been there and it's tough.  At one point never mind taking one day at a time, I took one hour at a time - but I got through it and you will too 

[okarol]

So happy you are back! 

[Joe Paul]

Welcome back paddbear 

[kellyt]

Welcome Back! 

[willieandwinnie]

  back paddbear. Take care.

[MyssAnne]

I'm glad you're back!!!!!

And congrats on moving on the transplant list, you're quite a bit further than I am!!!!

 

[Ohio Buckeye]

Welcome back Paddlebear!
We have missed you.
Where are you at in Ohio? (or what area)?

[Bajanne]

so glad you are back!!  We miss our family members when we don't hear from them.   And, yes, this is a tremendous support group.  Imagine you have caring people all over the world wishing you the best!!
My caring thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Romona]

I am so glad you are back. I was where you were before I had my transplant. My creatinine was 3.2. I had a preemptive transplant. I was starting to get confused. When the time is right, you'll be ready. 

[Mimi]

So glad to see you back padd bear.  Sorry about the blues, it is just par for the course with this disease.
Pray the sun starts shining for you soon.

Love, Mimi

[paddbear0000]

Thank you guys! I'm crying already. I missed you all so much!

Welcome back Paddlebear!
We have missed you.
Where are you at in Ohio? (or what area)?

I'm in Dayton, OB. Where are you?

[Ang]

good  to  see  you  back

[Sluff]

Well Hellooooooo stranger.

Glad to see you back in town. 

[KT0930]

padda, I had been wondering where you've been! So glad you're back!

I'm sorry you've been having so much trouble with depression. It seems like everyone in my family suffers from a susceptibility to it, and when you're in the middle of it, it sure seems like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. Having a chronic disease only makes it worse. We're all here for you, and I'm so glad to hear that your husband is finally aware of how bad it is for you...I hope he can offer you some hope and help.    back!

[angellady07]

Welcome back paddbear. 

[Slywalker]

   back.   

Hang in there.  And, in my humble opinion, it is never too early to start the transplant process.

You are getting lots of healing and positive thoughts headed your way.  I hope you can feel them.
Sandyb

[xtrememoosetrax]

PB: Glad you're back !! 

[Ohio Buckeye]

I'm in Westerville, just north outside of Columbus.
I think Paris is coming to Oiio in April.  Maybe we can do a meet.

[paddbear0000]

My transplant clinic and neph are both at OSU. That would be cool.