Hello fellow dialysis haters, my name is Geoff and I want to rant!!!!!!

[geoffcamp]

I have been back on dialysis for about 2 1/2 years now and I am REALLY getting tired of it!  all the meds (the ones that work and then all the ones they cahnge every 6 months).  I am young (36) and scared shitless when I see the condition of most of the people in my unit, I don't want to live that way.... not trying to mean to anyone but I used to feel like I could do anything that feeling has long since bee replaced with fear, depression and lonlyness.  I feel like no one understands what I am going through least of all me!  I was informed I had ESRD in 1998 and since then I have pretty much lost everything.  Jobs, money, freinds, self-confidence.........etc.  I am sick of it.  I am a pathetic 36 year old man living with his parents and in debt up to my ears from medical bills.  Of all the dreams I had for myself I have to say I never invisioned this!  I guess I am so pissed right now because I sat down to make some new years resolutions and what I wrote down for myself seems so unatainable right now.  There are many times when I feel like just stop going... but what would that really solve?   I have to find a way to get out of this rut I am in and turn this thing around.  Anyone have any suggestions??  Also I want to complain about my dialysis center they can not keep a constant temp in the place it is either cold or blazing hot, damn what is so hard about keeping a building at a constant temp??

well I guess I vented enough for now.  This is a great site I am so glad I came across it big ups to who ever runs it!
Geoff

[Epoman]

I have been back on dialysis for about 2 1/2 years now and I am REALLY getting tired of it!  all the meds (the ones that work and then all the ones they cahnge every 6 months).  I am young (36) and scared shitless when I see the condition of most of the people in my unit, I don't want to live that way.... not trying to mean to anyone but I used to feel like I could do anything that feeling has long since bee replaced with fear, depression and lonlyness.  I feel like no one understands what I am going through least of all me!  I was informed I had ESRD in 1998 and since then I have pretty much lost everything.  Jobs, money, freinds, self-confidence.........etc.  I am sick of it.  I am a pathetic 36 year old man living with his parents and in debt up to my ears from medical bills.  Of all the dreams I had for myself I have to say I never invisioned this!  I guess I am so pissed right now because I sat down to make some new years resolutions and what I wrote down for myself seems so unatainable right now.  There are many times when I feel like just stop going... but what would that really solve?   I have to find a way to get out of this rut I am in and turn this thing around.  Anyone have any suggestions??  Also I want to complain about my dialysis center they can not keep a constant temp in the place it is either cold or blazing hot, damn what is so hard about keeping a building at a constant temp??

well I guess I vented enough for now.  This is a great site I am so glad I came across it big ups to who ever runs it!
Geoff

Hi Geoff,

It's me I run this site and thanks for the big ups. Come here and rant and vent all you want this place is the exact reason I created this site for people like you to have place to come and let it all out. Kidney failure is a terrible thing and it destroys people physically and mentally. I hope this site can help you in some way like it has helped others so far. I too am in my 30's, read my bio to see the road I've traveled with kidney failure.