Firstly i would

[KICKSTART]

like to say im totally overwhelmed by everyones posts. I didnt think that my thinking of leaving would provoke such a reaction. Im totally shocked and feel very humble. Im just an ordinary person who comes on here , vents like hell , then goes off and has a cup of tea and a ciggie! (of course i do read the replies!)

I think some people have misunderstood why i have thought of leaving. Its not from any personal attack , it was just a feeling on the board in general and seeing others not being attacked exactly, but some of the replies to them being a bit harsh or unsupportive and i felt for those people, wanted to defend them , but how could i , without it looking like i was doing the same thing that the poster (of the reply) had done.
I will give people straight answers , but its not my nature to be harsh and i hope not offensive. I just try to be factual without being cruel.

I have had a lot of pm's , i will respect their privacy by not naming names. Many of who feel the same as me about the board , some who dont come here very often for this very reason , others just observe . I just think i was the person who actually said what a lot of others were thinking. Maybe its cleared the air? and will make us all stop and think about what we write before we write it.

I have had a pm from someone who was under the impression i had spoken to a moderator about them and that the moderator had wanted them to leave .This is NOT true. I have spoken to no one about anything like that . I have said all i needed to say in my post. So just to make it clear , i havent created a me or them situation , i havent contacted anyone to complain .

I hope this has cleared the air and maybe encouraged some people to come back or start to post again , without fear of being shot down. If it has then i have done my good deed for the day.

If no one minds , i would like to stay and see how it goes as i value all the info you all give me , however please dont feel you have to walk on eggshells if you see me posting.My trouble is , i have the hide of an elephant but the sensitivity of Bambi !!!

KS xxx 

[nursewratchet]

Well said!  Hopefully, we can all consider this a closed subject, and are SO glad you are staying..

[okarol]

Just as in the real world, the forum is comprised of many different personalities. No one is perfect, we all have good days and bad. I appreciate your honesty Kickstart. I am glad you'll keep posting, and hope others do too.
 

[paul.karen]

Im glad you are staying KS.

I have learned a great deal from reading your posts and many MANY other peoples posts.

P&K

[rose1999]

Well what did you expect, you're family and none of us want to see a family member leave. Great that you are staying 

Some days I feel I should leave because, now Dad has gone, I have no reason to be on a dialysis forum.......then I remember the support you have all given me and think that perhaps I can have a role in supporting others when they are down.

I know I won't stay around forever, as those I feel close to disappear from the boards then I will know it is time to go, life moves on for all of us.  Because of my loss  I'm still feeling vulnerable and that's why I don't even open some threads, others I read but don't post on because I need time to recover emotionally and don't need to get involved in arguments and controversy. Other times I feel I need to speak out.

Anyway enough rambling, this isn't a thread about me, thank you for letting me butt in - all I really wanted to say is "great that you are staying" and I hope you realise how valued you are by very many people all over the world.

[Goofy]

Sorry to hear of your loss.  I'm new here and I wish I could have found a site like this when my dad passed away from kidney failure.

Kidney disease effects the entire family.  Although your father is no longer here, I'm sure there is a lot you can contribute to others that have walked the same path as you.  I'm sure there will always be new people coming to this site and even if you help just one person, that's one less person that has to bear the burden of kidney disease alone.

I was also a "care taker" when my dad was sick, never knowing I would be in the same position so I have a perspective from both sides.

I feel this board needs people like you and Kickstart to help us "newbies".

[KICKSTART]

Rose 1999 , just a    KS xxx

[Poppylicious]

I'm pleased you're going to keep posting KS.  In Real Life I am exceptionally shy (look, even my picture says so!) and there's a part of me which feels I've (subconsciously) latched onto you as a means of easing my way into this forum.  That sounds sillier than it did in my head, but I'm hoping you understand what I mean!  I'm also hoping that doesn't make me sound like some dodgy stalker-ish type person ...   

[KICKSTART]

  Glad to be of help , xxx

[RichardMEL]

I'm pleased you're going to keep posting KS.  In Real Life I am exceptionally shy (look, even my picture says so!) and there's a part of me which feels I've (subconsciously) latched onto you as a means of easing my way into this forum.  That sounds sillier than it did in my head, but I'm hoping you understand what I mean!  I'm also hoping that doesn't make me sound like some dodgy stalker-ish type person ... 

I am available for dodgy stalker-ish type people... as long as they're female !!!!