I remember when my transplant was failing. I waited a year longer than I should have to get on CAPD instead of Hemo. A doctor said to me and I quote "You will never have to go on Hemo" only if he knew what he had said. Managed to last 13 years on CAPD. The last seven on Hemo. I have managed to dodge the needles most of the time with lines. But now my veins in my neck are thinning. So no more lines. So one line, one needle. For the foreseeable future.
I would not mind but its not the pain, its not thinking about the needle. I can even open the packs. I think its just Hemo itself, or so the prof thinks. Unstopable flash back from when i was a child on hemo. The holding down the arm strapped to a board. The feeling of being trapped on the machine. Those feeling all comes back when having a needle for dialysis. But when using lines no such feelings.