Rightside, you have left me feeling quite confused, a little frustrated and very worried. In your first post you described your situation and asked if we thought you should go to the ER. Several of us said yes we thought you should because this is a serious illness and it can and does kill people, sometimes quite suddenly.Now most of us here have been to ER far more times than we have wanted to and we completely understand that it's never something any of us wants to do. Now tonight you tell us about a dreadful sounding previous visit to ER, that sounds like you could have sued the hospital if you'd had a mind to. I understand your reluctance to go but your symptoms are serious and by waiting you could in fact be doing some damage to your body that you may regret later.I'm completely baffled about why you're "holding out" for three more days. Obviously you wouldn't be going back to the hospital that was so humiliating so you should be able to reasonably expect better treatment.As for your point about risk being what life is all about, that's true, but this kind of reckless risk is russian roulette, high stakes, life or death kind of risk. Even skydivers use parachutes to increase their odds against the known risks. As kidney patients, going to the hospital when we're having serious symptoms, is our parachute. If you need dialysis NOW and hold off too long, you could die.No one can make you go. You must of course make your own decisions. However, it really sounds as if you're not thinking too clearly about how serious this is and Karol is right that severe uremia clouds our thinking. I've been wacky out of it more than once and actually incapable of making any decisions at all, let alone a good one.You'll probably ignore what I'm going to say next, but, I repeat....GO TO THE HOSPITAL.