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Title: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Adam_W on March 03, 2012, 02:30:41 PM
Over the last few weeks, my depression and anxiety have been overwhelming me. I had literally reached rock bottom, and I skipped more and more treatments, and finally stopped dialysis completely. I went for about a week with no dialysis, and last Sunday I began to get very sick. It was then that the Lord gave me a nudge, and I realized that this just isn't right. I was too weak to get my own dialysis machine going, so I called an ambulance to come and get me. After five dialysis treatments in six days, I was released from the hospital and I feel much better. My doctor said that my potassium was so high, I probably would have died within 24 hours. I'm now getting treatment for my depression, and for the first time in quite a while, I feel like I have some hope for the future, and I feel I'm less likely to skip treatments. Please continue to pray for me.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: cassandra on March 03, 2012, 02:38:44 PM
Dear Adam, I will ask my dad to pray for you, but I'm hopefull that the meds will help.

Keep strong, love Cas
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: kristina on March 03, 2012, 02:55:15 PM

Dear Adam,

I do hope the medicine will help and I am so glad
that right now you feel like you have some hope for the future
and you feel less likely to skip dialysis treatments.

I am thinking of you and I send you all my best wishes,
 
Kristina  :grouphug;

Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: boswife on March 03, 2012, 03:08:51 PM
My prayers are with you and so glad you got that nudge. Keep getting stronger. Hugs
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: willowtreewren on March 03, 2012, 03:12:43 PM
Adam, I am so sorry you had to get so low before starting back up again. Depression is simply awful. I'm glad that you are being treated.

Please take care of yourself.  :grouphug;

Aleta
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Rerun on March 03, 2012, 03:13:49 PM
Adam you are added to my prayer list and please come to IHD because we understand and can talk things out.

    :pray;
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Traveller1947 on March 03, 2012, 03:43:57 PM
I'm so glad you acted on that nudge, Adam.  When you're feeling depressed, it's hard to remember that the Lord is with you.  All of us here are with you too.  I'll be praying for you.  All the best to you.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: amanda100wilson on March 03, 2012, 04:16:42 PM
Glad to hear that things are on the 'up'
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: jeannea on March 03, 2012, 04:51:49 PM
Depression can be really tough. I struggle with it myself. I'm glad you're ok and didn't die. Is there any chance you can start seeing a psychologist? It can be very helpful having someone to talk to.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: big777bill on March 03, 2012, 05:12:33 PM
 Adam I will pray for you. Depression is such a terrible disease. I've been dealing with it myself as of late. No weapon formed against you shall prosper. I have no doubt many prayers will be sent up for you. God Bless, Bill
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: jbeany on March 03, 2012, 05:44:09 PM
 :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug;
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: natnnnat on March 03, 2012, 05:44:35 PM
 :grouphug; caring thoughts to you Adam, and you too BigBill and Jean.  A happy day is in the mail for you, soon to arrive.  (If only the mail worked that way). 
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: sullidog on March 03, 2012, 07:27:47 PM
I myself and seeing a psycologist and it really helps.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Adam_W on March 03, 2012, 08:05:39 PM
I'll be seeing a psychiatrist on Monday and I will be receiving a combination of proper medication and therapy. I think it will really help. Plus I'm getting more support from friends and family.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: billybags on March 04, 2012, 03:53:41 AM
Adam you poor thing, letting your self get so low. I am pleased you got the nudge and that you are getting support now, don't let this happen again or we will slap your wrist.      :Kit n Stik; :Kit n Stik; Hope you go on all right to-morrow. let us know. Sending hugs.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Riverwhispering on March 04, 2012, 07:23:37 AM
Adam so glad you decided to take that sharp turn on your road of life.   

I've been thinking that depression is something everyone in the IHD family has to deal with now and again.  Been there done that often. 

love ya
River
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Poppylicious on March 04, 2012, 07:46:42 AM
How fabulous that the nudge came just in time ... so pleased you're getting help to get through this now.

*huggles*
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: okarol on March 04, 2012, 01:51:07 PM
 :cuddle; Love you Adam, thanks for staying with us.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Sluff on March 05, 2012, 10:14:49 AM
Try to stay busy with your hobbies, that helps.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: lmunchkin on March 05, 2012, 10:23:37 AM
 :pray; :pray; &  :grouphug;  to you Adam.

lmunchkin
 :kickstart;
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: beachbum on March 06, 2012, 07:12:39 AM
I've been to that low spot and it sucks. I've never taken it as far as you did but I'm happy to hear that you got help and you didn't die. Depression sucks and so does kidney disease. The two mixed together REALLY suck. Just remember you have friends here that care aout you.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: looneytunes on March 06, 2012, 07:23:16 AM
Isn't it wonderful that the Lord is so faithful to us?  I'm so glad you are getting the help you need.   :grouphug;
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: plugger on March 06, 2012, 09:49:47 AM
Glad to hear you are coming out of it!!!
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: buffalogal855 on March 06, 2012, 11:36:36 AM
 :grouphug;  Sorry that you are feeling bad right now.  Things will improve.  I just wanted to give you a BIG hug!
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Deanne on March 07, 2012, 07:33:01 AM
I know might take a little while for things to turn around for you. Hang in there. We're all rooting for you!  :grouphug;
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: Adam_W on March 07, 2012, 08:06:44 AM
Thank you all for your encouragement. I don't know what I would do without my IHD family!  :2thumbsup;
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: MooseMom on March 07, 2012, 09:41:01 AM
I don't know what I would do without my IHD family!  :2thumbsup;

You won't ever have to find out.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: texasstyle on March 07, 2012, 10:24:02 AM
I am so glad to hear you're doing better. Yes, as it's been said, chronic depression is hard. Depression can ultimetly lead to things like not taking care of yourself. the high Potassium is VERY dangerous. My husband had it a few times (he doesn't do the diet) & he went into full muscle paralysis, could harldy breath, and ultimetly collapsed on the floor. He "coded" in V tac 2x on one incident. that is like the oppposite of flatlining where you're heart rate goes so high and out of control until it finally stops. I'm not sure if you're taking anything for depression and everyone has the decesion to take something or not of course, but if you get on an anti-d it's "ok". We all have so many stressors in our lives. Spring is coming and the day where the sun is shinning and the warm of the sun will soon be hitting your face. The pure blue skies and fresh breeezes will cleanse and rejuninvate your soul and spirt. I'm waiting for this too! loll. hang in there. Thinking of you.
Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: tbarrett2533 on March 07, 2012, 05:02:00 PM
 :cuddle;

Title: Re: My depression nearly took my life.
Post by: mikey07840 on March 13, 2012, 02:06:56 PM
 :grouphug;