I Hate Dialysis Message Board
Dialysis Discussion => Dialysis: General Discussion => Topic started by: pagandialysis on January 06, 2012, 09:58:39 PM
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Today was amazing. I felt great. I got up, I went and knocked out the shopping list my wife gave me. I was out on my own, driving around the city. I felt normal again. Like I could actually do things. I came home, I put stuff away, cleaned the kitchen, and then cleaned out the car. I felt so amazing. There was point where a song on the radio made me think about my dreams and how they were destroyed by the illness but I let that go. I tried to push it out of my mind. Then I went to see how my wife was doing. She is layed up with kidney stones again. When I entered the room she asked me about making a living will. Suddenly, reality came crashing down on me. This wasn't going to last, I would be in the chair tomorrow, my whole day would be shot and there was even the possibility of feeling bad the next day. A feeling of overwhelming dread just slammed me in the face. :'(
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No words of mine will comfort you, pagan, but :cuddle; know that I feel for you and your lost dreams.
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I'm so sorry the good feeling didn't last longer. I understand depression. Hold on to what you can.
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Reality can be crushing .... just know that you are not alone!!!
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:cuddle;
I wish that our support would be enough to lift you up. I realize that it isn't, but that is all that we can give. :grouphug;
I hope things look up for you again.
Aleta
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We've all been there. I just hang in there for the good times. :grouphug;
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You have had a good day, look forward to other days.
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:grouphug; to you. It can be a bit "Heavy" sometimes. Tomorrow is another day!
lmunchkin
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Oh man, I know EXACTLY what you are feeling.
that's all I can say. because it's so F*****G bad
thank you for writing because every time I can think about the fact that another person knows this feeling, I feel a little bit better