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TRIBUTES FOR MEMBERS LOST => Rememberance For Past Members => Tribute for Mikey => Topic started by: Sluff on November 12, 2008, 08:22:17 PM
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As posted by Mikey's wife Marla in this thread http://ihatedialysis.com/forum/index.php?topic=10677.msg188131#msg188131
"My last post was Saturday--Mike spent most of the day sleeping and came around a little bit that night. He kept wanting to sit up in his bed so I was holding him up when our son came in, he was so surprised to see Mike sitting up and looking right at him, he went right over to him and Mike said; "there's my friend, my son" and reached up for a hug, I'll never forget it. Then Sunday morning he woke up around 11:00 and stayed awake and pretty aware; I called everyone and we all got to visit with him. Mom told me this morning that he gave her the sweetest smile she's ever seen on his face, wonder what they were talking about!! He was awake long enough to tell me he loved me and the kids--and whtever elst he wanted to say in private with my dad. They're pretty tight too and used to go fishing 3 times a week--all seasons.
Sunday was not so good and he slept most of the time (with his eyes open!) and when he was awake, he was confused and kept wanting to sit up. He was so weak he couldn't help me hold him up and my back was loosing it, so I would just calmly tell him he needs to stay in his bed or he will fall down. The rest of Sunday I just kept telling him how much I will miss him but that it's alright for him to go, I will take care of our kids and grandkids, and even though I'll miss him, I will be alright. I fell asleep on the couch around 5:00 Monday morning and when I woke up around 8:30, my baby was gone.
Instead of freaking out, I just went and made a pot of coffee, sat down and waited for it to be done and had a cup--strange--but I just was not ready to deal, but eventually I did. I woke up our son so we could have some alone time before people started coming and the first person I called was my mama, funny how we turn into little girls again sometimes. I waited a while before calling the hospice nurse and when I did, I told her I wasn't ready to let him go yet and to wait before calling the funeral chapel. I tried bathing him but just ended up cleaning some parts so I could keep his dignity intact. I feel like I did everything I could the way he wanted things
Now I am just plain exhausted and can't keep a thought in my head! Mom went with me to the funeral parlor and we got that taken care of and now I've got lots of paperwork to fill out to get some help. Plus people to call and people to try and find.
OMG, this hurts so damn bad and I can't believe he's really gone. The livingroom looks huge with all the equipment gone but the biggest hole is in my heart. He was so much the good part of my life and I really don't know what I'm gonna do without him. I feel very pissed and almost like I'm in shock, I keep getting these "butterflies" in my stomach and if I hear "hang in there" one more time........ One of the biggest things I dread is seeing our grandkids sweet faces after they know he's gone, especially the oldest one.
Thank you everyone so much for your thoughts, hugs and prayers. I really felt blessed on Sunday when he woke up for a while and thank God for those few precious hours. I know I'll "get through this" but OMG, it hurts so bad!!!"
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Rest peacefully Mikey.
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RIP, mikey.
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Rest In Peace Mikey and hugs to you Marley. :grouphug;
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Thank you for letting us know Marley. I am so very sorry for your loss. It sounds as if you and Mikey were very lucky to have each other. Sending you lots of love - take care of yourself. :cuddle;
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:grouphug; RIP Mikey
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I'm so sorry Marley. It's the worst thing in the world to see your companion go. My prayers are with you and your family. Thanks for letting us know.
Love, Mimi
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R.I.P
Condolonces to the family.
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R.I.P. Mikey, thoughts and prayers are with the family :grouphug;
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R.I.P. Mikey
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Marley, my sincere condolences to you and your family and may Mikey rest in peace. :cuddle;
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:-(
RIP Mikey..
Another angel is born
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:grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug;
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Sincere condolences. :grouphug;
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:grouphug;
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:grouphug; :'(
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Mikey fought so hard. Now he can rest. Marley, you are a very brave, strong woman. My heart is hurting for you. We all love you :grouphug;
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My prayers are with you Marley and your family. Mikey and you were blessed to have each other. You realized the specialness of your love and held onto it through thick and thin.
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:grouphug;
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:'( I am so sorry to hear this, RIP :grouphug;
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God bless Mikey and Marley. May your lives be blessed. :grouphug;
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RIP and bless you Mikey and all the family...Boxman
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Rest in Peace Mikey and hugs to you Marley, I know this site will give you strength. :grouphug;
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Marley,
I am so very sorry. You are in my thoughts.
RIP MIkey.
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Marley, I'm so sorry.
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I am so sorry for your loss. It can't be easy.
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R.I.P. Mikey
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Godspeed, Mikey.
:cuddle; Marley. I'm so sorry.
EDITED: Fixed smiley tag error-kitkatz,Moderator
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I'm thinking about Marley today -- and wondering how in the world she'll get through tomorrow (first holiday without Mikey and so soon after he's gone). She's living through what to me would be the unimaginable. I hope she'll spend the day with her mom; there's a lot of love there.
Thinking of you, Marley...
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From my own experience...any way Marley chooses to spend her day is the right way no matter what anyone says.....anyway is the right way for her...and please know we are all here to talk to you any time you want, I'm sure we will all be checking this site or talking to it tomorrow. There were times I didn't want to be with anyone and until a person goes through this there is no way to know what you want to do. It's all minute by minute and day by day. Just know we love you.
Ann
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Thinking of you for tomorrow Marley. :cuddle;