This poor girl has no chance of a decent life, and yet probably most non-renal patients reading this report will assume it is a "happily-ever-after" story. Being exposed to the toxic effects of immunosuppressives while she is growing, suffering all the debilities of having been so long on dialysis at such a formative period of her life, and already at her young age starting to use up the limited time her transplant(s) can survive, are all factors which will severely limit her health, functioning, and life expectancy.
The worst mistake people make is to assume that life in any form is always preferable to death.
Before I developed renal failure, I was living a hyperactive life as a university professor at two separate universities, one in England and one in Germany. Suddenly, however, I was struck down by Wegener's Vasculitis, an extremely rare autoimmune disease which transformed me from a healthy, young-llooking man in his forties to a feeble renal paitient in the span of just two weeks. I spent eight years on dialysis, during which I was unable to work and endured a kind of living death, during which my existence was plagued with hypersomnia, constant nausea and vomiting, itching, difficulty concentrating, and exhaustion -- despite my rigid adherence to the renal diet and 15 hours of hemodialysis a week. Eventually I got a transplant, and the effect was immediate and remarkable, since I felt truly awake for the first time in years just minutes after coming out of the recovery room following the operation. In the year since then, I have been able to return to work and feel about 80% as healthy as I did before renal failure. The main limitations I experience are from clouding of the vision due to cataracts forming in response to the prednisone dose; tiredness from persistent low hemoglobin levels; and severe, month-long illness when I get the winter flu. Still, I feel incomparably more healthy than I did on dialysis, and now realize that I was unable to perceive during dialysis exactly how far I had dropped below the level of normal living.
Willlie and Winkie: I wouldn't wish on that child "the same things I felt" for the world. She would be better off dying right now than going through all the medical crises I had to go through.
I think it's all in a person's attitude. If you think life with ESRD and dialysis and transplantation is "the end" of your life, it will be, and the disease will conquer you. However, if you see ESRD, dialysis, and transplantation as something you have to LIVE through and you can still maintain a "good" life despite it and its complications, you will be the victor. My hope is that this child -- just like Marvin -- will fall into the latter category. How miserable life must be for those who fall in the first category!
Willlie and Winkie: I wouldn't wish on that child "the same things I felt" for the world. She would be better off dying right now than going through all the medical crises I had to go through. Unfortunately, her prognosis is even worse than mine was, given her early exposure to the toxic immunosuppressive regimen as well as all the existing damage to nerve, brain, and skeletal development from being on dialysis for so long and so early.
tyvm morein alice,s kidney is doin fine , she is running round with her freinds as if nothing has happened and is going back to school on monday, great i need a break lol , not really thx
Quote from: george on April 26, 2008, 04:52:43 PMtyvm morein alice,s kidney is doin fine , she is running round with her freinds as if nothing has happened and is going back to school on monday, great i need a break lol , not really thx So happy for your family. Hope she has a AWSOME day back at school
The only person's life whose quality we can really judge is our own and even then sometimes it is easy to lose perspective. <snip> Long live hope.