Thanks everyone for words of support. My emotions are fine as i cant wait to get a divorce and wipe that B****d out of my life! might be facing this illness alone , but believe me its far easier to do that , then be with him! I hardly cry now ..only at sad animal things! I dont have to listen to rants, arguements,tantrums,i can 'allow' myself to be ill and have off days. I can stay in my jim-jams all day if i want too. I can eat what and when i want. I can sleep for as long as i want..ooooo the list is endless..Its a shame you guys are sooo far away , we could have had a divorce party !!!