Holiday Blues

[goofynina]

Here it is, Friday night, everything is fine, hubby at work, house is clean, music playing, i got my scissors, my tape, my wrapping paper and name tags, i am good to go, then, as i sit down and start getting ready to wrap my gifts, friends and family members that have passed away came to my mind and then the thought entered my mind "I wonder if this is going to be my last Christmas" and i bursted out into tears, nothing i could possibly do could help me, now i am in this funk of a mood and dont know how to shake it, so what do i do? i come here, to where i know someone could understand what i am saying, i guess i could just use a hug right about now and there is no one here to give me one so i went to the next best thing. HUG ME SOMEONE PLEASE 

[okarol]

{{{BIG HUGS!!!}}} 
You'll make me cry too. 

[oswald]

  i hope you feel better soon   

[vandie]

Oh honey.  Big hugs to you.  I wish i could hang out and help you wrap.

xoxo

[goofynina]

Thank you all so much, brought a smile to my face and that is a big improvement, believe me    I hate when shit like this messes with my mind and throws me off schedule, lol, (at least that is what i am blaming)  Just gonna say some prayers and get the wrapping started, just do what i can do then i am going to bed, have a big day tomorrow (and night)  Just know this, I Love you all   

[Romona]

 

[oswald]

 

[angela515]

 

[Amanda From OZ]

  



Amanda   
xxooxx

[Wattle]

  I know exactly how you feel Goofy. I always have that in the back of my mind. For the last three years I have tried to make it "the best Christmas ever" for my kids..... just in-case it's the last one. I buy way too many presents. I don't even discuss this with my husband. Christmas has always been like that in my house. Growing up with a sick Dad, we always appreciated the time we had. I am really trying to throw the feeling too.

So {{{{HUGS}}}} all round!           

[Joe Paul]

** BIG HUGS**

[Sluff]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ smoooooch}}}}}}}}}}}    you said hugs  {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ hugs }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} oh well you know I meant well.

[2_DallasCowboys]

 


Anne

[willieandwinnie]

goofynina

  I hope you are feeling better. We would all give you a big  in person if we could. Hopefully this cyber  and  will let you know we all care. 

[tamara]

I don't get emotional about possibly it being the end for me, I get emotional about the people that have already left us, especially my mum 

For all the happiness Christmas Brings, it also brings sadness for me  Cause it can never be the same without her 

Goofy I'm joining the hugs, looks like we need one                   

[boxman55]

Goofynina, wishing you all the positive thoughts you can muster. You are too sweet and I am sorry this has come over you. I know it can get tough but try and  think happy thoughts about all your loved ones. It works for me. Merry Christmas to you...Boxman

[lola]

  xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox






EDITED: Fixed cuddle icon error - Sluff/ Admin

[goofynina]

Good Morning everyone,  THANK YOU for all my wonderful hugs (and even some kisses) oooh la la    You guys truly are so absofreakenlutely THE BEST!!!  Just wanted to update everyone that i am feeling a little better this morning, i have been busy cooking so no real time to think, and Sam is home so if and when i feel i need a hug, i know he is there   Thank you all again, you dont know how good you make me feel knowing you all are just a keyboard away, I LOVE YOU 

[angellady07]

I'm glad you are feeling better. Lots of hugs are coming your way.      

[paris]

Oh Susie, we love you sooooo much!  I have moments that I also think "will this be the last time?". Maybe we should all live everyday like it is the last. I am trying to enjoy the Christmas tree, the good times with my family---the usual stuff.  I am amazed at how much less I can do this year. Too tired, too much pain to do as much as I normally would do.  My son,Adam, yesterday told me not to worry so much--he just wants me to take it easy and enjoy the holidays.   No cards sent this year and shopping was limited, but my house smells good, everything looks festive.  I love Christmas so I am really going to enjoy each moment of this year----and tomorrow is another day, Scarlett!   We will all be here hanging out together in 2008, helping each other cope with this lovely disease.      Much love, hugs and good wishes to you and your sweet Sam  

[charee]

Glad your feeling better Susie have a great Christmas 

[del]

  goofynina.  I am going to have a sad Christmas too.  My mom died on Wednesday.  Just got home from the funeral tonight.  She was really sick and in severe pain for the past couple of weeks. Has been spaced out on morphine for about the last week.  I know she is better off and she has no more pain but it is still hard. 

[kellyt]

goofynina.  I am going to have a sad Christmas too.  My mom died on Wednesday.  Just got home from the funeral tonight.  She was really sick and in severe pain for the past couple of weeks. Has been spaced out on morphine for about the last week.  I know she is better off and she has no more pain but it is still hard. 

Del, I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your mother.  My mother passed in March of 2006 and I miss her terribly!  If you need someone to chat with let me know.

Goofynina, I'm glad you're feeling better.  I get that way sometimes and I haven't even started dialysis yet!  I'm still in my evaluation phase!  I'm not afraid of dieing, but I just don't want it to be painful and drawn out!

Love all you guys and gals!  Happy Holidays!      

[Adam_W]

  

[kitkatz]

Susie you know you can always lean on us as a group.  We all have felt the same way at one time or another.,  I have been having several months of looking inward.  Love ya!