Goofy you didn't tell us you went to georges party
Thanks for everyones support/concern. I'm not actually taking a class yet, but I'm looking at taking a basic one semester class for dialysis tech training (I don't think I would trust a centre's on the job training quality), or a class for basic bio-medical training. As for Deanne's comment about the medicine, I did consider that, but if anyone was around my dog when she really gets going, I think anyone would want to shoot themselves after a few minutes of it. We're trying to find effective (and safe and humane) ways to control her when she "spazzes out". I feel a lot better now, and I'm no longer mad at anyone. I do realize everyone is trying their best to help me out, but doing things like college and work have to be on my time. NxStage has helped immensely, but like I said, I still have ESRD. My nurse is talking to my doctor (easier for her to get a hold of him than me), and he will help me and my general care doc work out dosing. My GP did make sure it was ok for me to take it since I'm on dialysis, but I just may not be able to handle this particular dose. As for the rifle, buying it won't effect any of my bills, so I see nothing wrong with buying it. Shooting is right up there with model building as far as helping me to NOT think about ESRD and dialysis, because when I'm aiming a rifle or a pistol down-range at a target, I have to concentrate so much to make sure I hit that target in the right spot, I can't think about anything else. I even tried using a picture of a dialysis machine as a target, and it worked a little bit, but shooting at a regular target, is even more effective at taking the dialysis thoughts away. Again, thanks for the support. I really needed it. Adam
Quote from: lola on December 21, 2007, 10:13:38 AMGoofy you didn't tell us you went to georges party *hiccup* OOPS, BUSTED *cracks whip* whooop-pah
I was at a Christmas party on Monday night and there was this girl (a drunk girl who spent a good portion of the night on the stripper pole with a whip in one hand) who kept telling me to "lighten up". I could have gotton aggravated with her but I know she meant well. Little did she know that I was enjoying myself, I had a beer, I just wasn't drunk. I stayed for the entire party, until 2:30am, watched everyone drink and dance and live care free. As much as I would like people to understand at times, I know they can't, so I try to be more. I try to be the one to understand.
I am the one they lean on-----I need to lean right now. Sorry guys! I know this is the only place I could go with all of this.
Quote from: paris on December 23, 2007, 08:00:58 PMI am the one they lean on-----I need to lean right now. Sorry guys! I know this is the only place I could go with all of this. Don't be sorry, Paris. IHD has big shoulders and a strong back -- lean all you need to. Hope things are going better today, and the meltdown has all good after-effects -- washing out stress, opening communication.