Naynay99
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« on: January 21, 2019, 02:55:47 PM » |
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Hey. So I had a transplant evaluation about a month ago at a second transplant center. Contacted them today bc I hadn’t heard anything. The tx coordinator responded back, saying that I was listed but that they were waiting for insurance approval to activate me. Which sounds like I’m not really on their list yet? Idk. She said I would get a letter in the mail soon.
I have an evaluation at a third tx center in 2 weeks. I’m multi listing bc my kidney dr told me to, and I’m sure it does up my chances of getting a call a little bit, but it is a PIA dealing with all these hospitals. If it was more feasible I would list somewhere far away like FLA, where the wait is shorter, but that could get complicated and expensive, so I am sticking with the Tri state area. I know just getting on the list is a feat in itself, and that I should be grateful I have that privelege. I need to focus on staying as healthy as possible while waiting for a transplant. But it is hard to stay positive. Lately the whole thing is feeling a bit futile and exhausting.
When my original tx center approved me and I got the letter that I was officially active on ther list, I felt excited and relieved. Now I just feel dread at having to do this whole evaluation all over again. And it will be a year in April at my first center so I will have to repeat this crap all over again. Ugh. I kind of wish I could just hire somebody else to set up all these tests and appts- I need a personal assistant to keep this all straight!! especially bc my memory is crap lately.
Anyway I think I am just whining a bit here of frustration. I suppose dealing with this stuff is keeping me distracted from obsessing about impending dialysis. I see my dr in 2 weeks and I know he will want to talk about getting an access. I still haven’t figured out iif I can manage doing PD or not. I did look at dialysis centers near me and there is one that does nocturnal hemo dialysis, 9 pm to 5 am 3 x a week or something like that. I can’t inagine that I would get much actual sleep, but having extended sessions would probably be a little gentler on the body and maybe I wouldn’t feel like crap afterwards. Idk. That is a long time to be attached to a machine tho. I just need to find a modality that will allow me to keep working.
So I got off topic a bit there. My mom wondered if u are listed at more than one hospital , if they don’t try as hard to find u a kidney. I don’t think that’s true? The list doesn’t work like that. But idk. I do feel like my primary tx center coordinator was pretty disappointed when I lost my potential live donor, but not sure if that is bc I am losing out or that they are losing out on charging for 2 surgeries. Maybe that’s too cynical a view. Anyway, mutilisting is not for the weak! thanks for letting me vent. Take it easy.
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