Thank you all so much for the kind words. I have been surrounded by family and friends.I keep thinking about what he would have wanted. I can hear him saying " I'm gone give up the crying and move on" of course there would be a few other words mixed in there!! He was my husband and my best friend and I loved him dearly and I will miss him everyday of my life . He always told me he did not ever want me to be along and to move on with my life and enjoy myself. it will be hard but I will try to do my best to do what he wanted me to do. My plan is to move closer to family -absolutely no family where I live now. I have at least a 4 hour drive to visit a family member. For a while I will just visit different people until I decide where I want to live. It will be a very different life style for me but I will adapt. Who knows, I may do some traveling and come visit some of you guys. Thank you. Your kind words really help a lot.