where to gain strength

[billybags]

Looney it is a s day to-day. he managed to get the car out to take me shopping, weekly stuff, I thought he was going to collapse on me. He had to go and sit down he has gone to bed now. I don.t know how my fuc***g heart copes with this. Hope your two are getting through the day alright.

[cassandra]

I really hope you both had a M, and G day today and will have those tomorrow

[kevinswife]

Boswife,

I cried when I read this post.  It seems like we have some moments of joy, but we are always waiting for the other shoe to drop.  It's like there is a black cloud that follows us around.  One thing that helps me is my faith.  When I am having a bad day, I think of Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

Also, I have been taking time to do something good for myself for a change.  For the past six weeks, I have been going for a walk/jog for about half an hour, three days per week.  I am doing the "Couch to 5K Program".  It is designed to help people go from being a couch potato to running a 5K in nine weeks.  I am on week six. I use a free podcast that I found on C25K.com.  They even have a potcast set to Christian music. I feel like it is helping my heart and lungs.  Also, I feel good mentally after I exercise.  After going for my jog in the morning, I seem to be in a better mood the entire day.  Perhaps this is a "runner's high", but I don't run.  I do a very slow jog.  My goal is to do an 8K next month that supports organ donor awareness.  It is on a Sunday (a non-dialysis day for my husband).  He said he will go to the race and cheer me on!   

[kevinswife]

Big Bill,
I wonder if smoking pot can hinder one's chance of getting a transplant. 

[big777bill]

 Absolutely I was talking tongue in cheek. I have no plans on doing anything illegal to feel alittle better. If you are found to have any trace of any illegal drug in your system that's automatic that nyour kicked off the tx list. You have to be clean for at least 6 months. Some center may want you to be clean longer. I'm not a candidate for a kidney tx anyway. I did have a liver tx 7 years ago.

[kevinswife]

Big Bill,

I am sorry that you are not a candidate for a transplant.  It would be tempting to try medical marijuana to help with the nausea. 

There is a patient at my husband's dialysis center who smokes cigarettes.  He cannot get on the transplant list until he quits smoking and is nicotine free for X amount of time. 

[big777bill]

 I wonder if you live in a state where medical marijuana is the law if they would hold it against you for getting a tx? My thought would be how could they as long as the hospital and the patient are from the same state.

[Kitty Cat]

boswife,

I am so sorry that you or anybody has to go through this. The best any of us can do is our best, tears, frustration and all. Nobody could ever ask more. This is a horrible disease that affects everybody, from the patient right down to the pets in the household. I wish and pray that there would be a cure. So much is done these days and to see people suffer is heart wrenching.

Never apologize for venting, all of us get to that point some time or other. There's always hope...that is what holds us all together.

Hugs to you....

[texasstyle]

Don't EVEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRR fel bad about venting. Holding emotional stress in is so bad for your health. We're human and we need each other and you've got that here.