Soooo tired of this....wish someone would shoot me and put me out of my misery

[Lillupie]

Hey, I want to thank eveyone for being there for me. Thank you for letting me vent. Sometime this really gets to me. But I need to be thankful for what I have. Sometimes I feel like I have one foot in the healthy world, and one foot in the sick world of dialysis. I feel heathy but Im not. I guess at times I loose sight of things.


Lisa

[okarol]

Hi Lisa,
First, I would not tolerate the threats and bullying at your clinic. It's not true that Medicare won't pay, I cannot believe they are saying that.
The diet restrictions are tough, and I really don't know how most folks stick to it.
If you need help finding a donor (if your transplant hospital will accept strangers) I can help you get your story out there.
Can you change clinics?
 

[Rivy]

 Im soooooooo sick and tired of this dialysis bullshit. Im sick and tired of people getting a transplants and i have yet to get one. I have been doing this bs for over 4 years now. Im sick of hte time consumption that this takes. Im tired of not being abe to have more kids, but yet i cant get on birth control. Im sick and tired of the diet and having to strave myself to prevent from cheating. Im tired of all the damn meat every  day. Im tired of being called in the clinic at the last minute to retake a lab that stupid Davita labs made too high and when I go and get the test retested my lab(s) come back normal. Im tired of all the threats my center likes to tell people. They tell us if we are late on kt/v, dont turn in the log sheets, miss a clinic Medicare isnt going to pay. I understand/get that the logs, going to clinic, kt/v is important but do they have to threaten us or black mail us?

Lisa

I'm feeling you, Lisa!  I guess all we have to do is hang in there..Someday it will happen for a miracle! 

Rivy

[Whamo]

I totally get the feeling of I'm healthy again, but the next day realizing you're not, because it's time to go to Dialysis.  I just live for the day after dialysis.  Those days are sweet.

[Gerald Lively]

I was "feeling" her too - almost got arrested.

[Lillupie]

I was "feeling" her too - almost got arrested.

 
ROFL lol Noone else saw that???   Feel this. lok
Lisa

[CebuShan]

        I don't know, ladies. Between Richard and Gerald, we're doomed!   

[Riverwhispering]

Don't forget Rivy

[kitkatz]

I fully understand your feelings.  Hard to function normally when you know dialysis is around the corner that day or watch what you eat every mouthful because some stupid lab work was high.  Been at it thirteen years.  Want many times to run screaming in circles.   

[*kana*]

Oh you poor thing.  I hope you feel better soon!  Have you looked into Toledo as your transplant hospital?  I was told their list is only 1.5 years. 

I've been doing this for about a year less then you and it doesn't effect my life quite as much as you are being effected.  Check into a different clinic and hospital because they aren't all that bad.  I like Fresenius and have only had tiny issues with them.

I'm living with watching my sister(O+, High PRA's, 6point antigen match) whom never had a day of dialysis get a transplant after 4mths of being on the list.  I'm happy she was blessed, however, it is tough to have to see others like you have to wait so long and suffer.  She got her transplant and I lost my sister....meaning she and I don't talk anymore because she doesnt understand my suffering. 

Hang in there!