Jesus , blood and sand !

[KICKSTART]

Thats what my gran used to say because she didnt like to swear. My panic attacks are back , all night i have been fighting one off. I havent had one for ages .I know whats causing them ..all this upset and stress recently, but i cant control them. I can be sat quietly and it just happens , i get like this feeling of dread wash over me , its horrible , then my hearing goes a bit funny (like when you get water in your ears) then my heart starts to race and the dread gets worse. I dont have breathing problems with it , just this horrible feeling more than anything and like my heart is going to explode.  I knew they where starting again , i had one at the start of D but put it down to maybe an early crash (it is known to crash at the start of D as well as at the end) Oh and i pour with sweat while it lasts.  Great !

[gothiclovemonkey]

I always love hearing ways people who dont swear say things lol thank you
i have anxiety and panic attacks alot, i have for a loong time but they seem to be alot worse since starting d. they suck, i do have trouble breathing with mine, as well as what u described, and almost like fear, shivering, yep... it sucks

[MooseMom]

Oh, that must feel horrible!

I don't think I have ever had a panic attack, but I have been known to have a meltdown.  I had one yesterday.  I think I carry around so much stress that some little problem will send me over the edge.  I was dealing with my mother's estate (not something I like doing because it makes me sad that she is gone), and I was trying to print out something, and there was a paper jam in my printer.  Could I fix it?  No.  I followed all of the instructions to clear it, but a tiny bit of paper tore and got stuck in the bowels of the machine.  I lost it.  I screamed and screamed and screamed until I was hoarse.  I called the Geek Squad, but they told me they couldn't help, and I just cried on the phone and then hung up on the guy.  I then called my husband at work (like he could do anything!), and I just sobbed so hard that I couldn't speak, and he was afraid that I had been in an accident or something. 

It was a horrible day, all over a paper jam.

I do think we live with so much anxiety that any more upset drives us bonkers.  KS, I'm not surprised you had an anxiety attack.  I'm so sorry.  I wish I could be there to make you feel better, just to be there for you to talk to and have a cuppa with.   

[boswife]

ewe... im so sorr KS, and got     I almost couldnt finish reading as im THAT prone to those stupid things.  They're awful!!!  and MM, how sad!you poor lady.  Some days are just not good...  One day, that may be a simple fix, or not, but not a meltdown day.  Life is weard like that...   

[KICKSTART]

Yeah MM i have days like that where the smallest thing reduces me to tears and usually whatever it is, isnt even sad ! I was flicking through the tv channels the other day and found this kids programme on about a riding stables (as you know i love horses) and this young girl let this horse go on a big open range and said 'run free'  bang i was off bawling like a baby ! So yeah i can understand how that piece of paper might as well have been a mountain !

[Jean]

Its always the little things that get to you. I am adjusted to the old ticker not being great, the thought that one day soon I will be on D and a back that hurts nearly all of the time. But now, I have a RASH that itches something awful. All the time!!! I get so worked up by the time I give in and put the cream on it, i am then itching all over!!! The little things!!!!

[Poppylicious]

Awww, Kickie.  How are you feeling now?  I've never had a panic attack, despite suffering from depression and anxiety.  I'm quite glad really as I think it would really freak me out.  I certainly don't envy you ... I just hope that things aren't so bad today.

*huggles*

[KICKSTART]

Thanks Poppy , the thing is just when you think they have stopped they have a horrible habit of creeping back up on you. !

[brandi1leigh]

I have panic attacks! They're awful. Sometimes it helps me calm down if I remind myself it's a physical response. I just keep telling myself that my body thinks I'm in danger so that's where the fight or flight response comes in. It doesn't always work, but sometimes it helps.
Good luck!

[Brightsky69]

I hope the stress dies down soon.
 I ve never had bad panic attacks before. I think I had a small one in the hospital just a few days after my transplant. I tend to get claustrophobic and was hooked up to just about everything. I had those things on my legs, a drain line, IV's and a line in my neck. I was a little panicky and they gave me a Xanax and it worked like a charm.

[Stoday]

Getting back to the original post —

I don't swear in the dialysis clinic. Well, I do, but I do so in German. Words like scheiße or Arschloch. The staff don't understand German. 

[KICKSTART]

I can guess the 2nd one  but whats the first one ? Sadly that would work for me ..our 'sister' is fluent in German !!!

[Stoday]

First one? Well, here's a phrase that might help, although I doubt it'll help our friends in the US.

He was built like a brick scheißenhausen.

 

[Henry P Snicklesnorter]

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[cariad]

First one? Well, here's a phrase that might help, although I doubt it'll help our friends in the US.

He was built like a brick scheißenhausen.

 

Seriously, you think we don't use that phrase around here? Oh, honey! I'd always thought we'd invented it!

You've heard Lionel Richie's song, surely? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2BKv45NIsSE (have to wade through a short advert first, but this is one of the best examples of superb audience interaction I've yet seen.)

Notice the beat or two between the words "brick" and "house". I think your mind is supposed to fill in the rest during that rather prominent pause.

It reminds me of prep school, where we were theoretically all turning into young ladies and gentlemen. Every year we played (American) football against our biggest rivals and in addition to the usual taunting chants we had a straight-to-the-point one that we tacked on to each cheer. Even the instructors would join us in this bit of self-censorship: Andover, Andover, eat [clap] and die! It's quite sweet when some 1000 adolescents shout it out in unison.

Never had a panic attack, KS, and am glad for small mercies. You could try Cer i Grafu, assuming you have no Welsh speakers there. Sorry things continue to be so rough.