I cried again on Friday "as I was being led away to the chair" yes the torture chair. I really feel like I have done something wrong and are being punished for it. Jailltime would have been better - at least you know it will end and you will be free.
Just me ranting away again.. 
Wow, I can totally relate to this. I feel that way, too. I'm not on D yet, but knowing that it's in my future, that I only have 23% kidney function now at the age of 36, am supposed to be on a highly regressive, flavorless, boring, sad diet, all makes me wonder what in the hell did I do in a past life to deserve this??? I also feel that way in regards to my "dating" experiences, which have been nothing short of jokes. Then, when I think of those younger than me who get hit with ESRD, I feel bad for feeling pitiful, because at least I have had my life thus far D-free, and continue to do so for now. But, when I think about the history of cancer in my family, and how a transplant may not be the best idea for me because of that, then I start feeling pitiful again. It's a never ending cycle.
KarenInWA
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