... I absolutely trusted him and didn't believe he could be wrong. To find out he was has destroyed my trust in him and it hurts to live with a shadow hanging over your head you didn't need to and it makes me so angry, hurt and upset.
... it was a place I trusted when I was down and I now am VERY unsure about posting there again when it is anything personal about myself.
Hi Michelle,
I understand about the trust issues and I think learning to cope with that is one of the hardest things any patient deals with. If we had listened only to the "medical professionals" who have treated my husband, he would probably have significantly shortened his life and what he had left would have been of far poorer quality.
As to your current decisions, I can't really be much help w/ first hand information, but I can tell you that I have learned a lot from various message boards and used that information to do online research and as a starting point for questioning every medical professional we encounter.
I wish I had more to offer, but you seem to be doing a good job of carefully weighing all of the options.
Good luck.
Lorelle