I Hate ...add yours

[dwcrawford]

I hate that I am about to post on this thread.

I hate that my life now revolves around dialysis.

I hate that I am going to die while on dialysis, go to or from or else because I'd decided to stop dialysis.

I hate the threads that say "dialysis is no way to live" though they are right -- actually I hate that they are right.

I hate the threads that says people over 60 will die waiting for a transplant.  I hate that they are right.

I hate that I am going to be one year older in a couple of weeks.  I try to say the age but just can't manage to get it out.

I hate not having fun, not going out, not making people happy anymore.  I hate that my life is without value.

God, I hate this post and mostly, I hate that this ranting didn't help a bit.

[paris]

Dan, I have another birthday in about 3 weeks.  We are in the same decade.  I want to respond to a couple of your "hates".  You have great value to your IHD family and you make me very happy. I love your posts. I love how quickly you adjusted to your situation and are helping others get through the beginning of dialysis.    All the women in my family live to their 90's and I know I will not follow their pattern.  BUT, they all had Alzheimers ---- so, I am looking on the bright side!!  Depression has reared it's ugly head around here for a couple of weeks and I don't like it.  I want to think about musicals, theater, symphonies, beautiful things and enjoy my days.  So, maybe we can get each other back on track.  I don't look forward to this birthday, but I need to be glad I am having one.   We will cyber celebrate our birthdays!!   

And I am still hating waiting this week.  No calls except from family wanting to know if I have heard from the transplant clinic.  If I had, I would have called everyone!!  So, I sit and wait --   

[Chris]

There is something I hate and I just can't put my finger on it yet