Thank you all very much for your responses. I apologize for taking a week to say so. I saw my new nephrologist last Monday and we had a lengthy discussion. He's quite worried (though he tried not to show it. He's a very nice guy but wasn't expecting such a serious first appointment.) He said that he thinks my solution is a transplant. Among other reasons, my bipolar disorder reacts extremely to steroids. I get as manic as the rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. Considering the challenges dialysis presents to managing my mental illness I'd rather die than take steroids. Sigh..............It would certainly mean in-center dialysis because my mind would be really unreliable.
Contrary to common myth, mania is NOT fun. About 5 years ago my internist talked me into taking "a small dose" of prednisilone to end the several weeks of the end of a flu. Among other misadventures, I over-reacted to a jerk behind me in line at Home Depot. I apologized for whatever it was he thought I did but he wouldn't let go of it. He was about 5 feet tall and I'm 6' 3" tall. I turned around and bent 90 degrees at the waist and got nose to nose with him. Using my quarter-deck voice I yelled "THIS IS THE WRONG DAY TO p*ck WITH ME." Home Depot has very odd vibes when its silent. Anyhow I had to abandon the 20 sheets of drywall and leave before the police arrived.
I'm trying to work out a funny line about being diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 44 and my adolescence ending at 40 but it ain't happenin'. I'm seeing mucho irony but little humor in the world these days.
I'll close with someone's else's joke.
A woman was looking at herself in the mirror and bemoaning the small size of her breasts. Her husband looked up and says “Why don[t you try rubbing them several times a day with tissue paper. In a year or so they’ll be twice a s big.” She said she’d never heard of that and wondered if it would really work or if it was a bad joke. Her husband assured her it would do the trick and offered her proof. “It worked on your ass.” This afternoon he was moved from ICU to a regular room.
Red Mist