Hi, I am doing NxStage since last October. It is scary at first but you will get there. You may also wish to go to Home Dialyzors United website, and may also want to apply to join their Listserve. The latter is for those doing NxStage and/or their carartners. Plenty of help and advice through experience. You will not be able to join until your husband actually starts on May 15, but you are more than welcome to apply to join, and since I am a moderator, I will be able to approve you at that time. Link is: http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/NxStageUsers/Good luck, Amanda