Scary checkup this week

[woodsman]

I have to go in next week coming up for bloodwork and then to Dr. Javed. he will thn tell me if it is time to get the fistula installed. i have to tell you all i have been fearing this visit for 20+ years and i and still weighing my options. 1: deal with all the needles,hospitals,drs. nurses and hope for the best. 2; hope one of my donors are approved soon. 3: let the cards fall where they may and just live until i can't anymore... decisions decisions, my wife is a nurse and all the horror stories over the years make me not want to go near a hospital but she also had some great stories.... IDK i guess i'll have to wait and find out oct 5th........

[AguynamedKim]

Jim, I hope it all goes well for you.  We're in your corner rooting for you.    

[galvo]

All I can say is that getting the fistula and undergoing dialysis has proved to be nowhere near as bad as the fear of undergoing the procedures. Good luck.

[MooseMom]

Woodsman, are you my clone?  I could have written this post.  I just had an appt with my neph yesterday, and for the whole week before, I had a constant stomach ache.

Earlier this year, the appt finally came where I was told I needed to get a fistula.  I left the office, got in my car and cried.  The day I got my fistula was one of the worst days in my whole life, and I told that to everyone in the hospital who would listen to me.  I cried so much that they finally just put me to sleep to shut me up.  I'm not embarrassed and I won't apologize for that.  But I will admit that after the surgery was over, I felt such relief that I had survived the realization of one of my worst mightmares.  I was relieved to know that when the time comes, I'm ready for D..no faffing about with catheters.  I now have the world's most fabulous fistula (or so my surgeon claims!). 

The waiting really is so horrible; I do feel for you.  I know exactly how you are feeling, and I hope the time goes by quickly.  Perhaps you will be told you don't need the surgery just quite yet.  Do please let us know.

[Jean]

 The waiting is the absolute worst.

[kremizin]

i already accepted the fact that sooner or later my mom will be on D.  it somehow relieved me of my worries.

[woodsman]

I go in the am to give blood then they now moved my appointment to next Monday  I am a bit worried and i am never a person to worry much. I am at the end of my rope so to speak and the waiting now is worse than anything i have experienced to date in my 54 years... IJDK seems to me that they like to make us suffer needlessly. I am glad my wife is here to guide me and keep me strong without her i'd have hung it up sometime ago...