Why am i ?

[KICKSTART]

Tired but cant sleep.
Bored but dont do anything.
Hungry but not eating.
Fed up of sitting ,but no energy to get up.
Full of good intentions but do nothing about them.
Fed up of not going out , but dont go out.
Follow the same daily routine , but do nothing to change it.
Hot but then cold.
My mind going 100mph, my body a slow crawl.
Plans to do a million things , but no energy to do them with.
Thankful im alive , but sad its not normal.

What are you ?

[paul.karen]

Im everything you are,  But im also so itchy lately

[Stoday]

You get hungry? Lucky you!

I never get hungry anymore. I've almost forgotten what it's like to be hungry. I had a touch of diarrhea last month and didn't eat anything for four days. Even after that I wasn't hungry. I keep having to think of something especially delicious so that I can motivate myself to eat.

[twirl]

it is like you took the words from my mouth -
only itchy -- I'm bitchy
only not hungy  - I'm always hungry

[kitkatz]

Why am I
gaining weight even though
I am exercising?
Why am I not fitting clothes right anymore?
Why can't I walk fast anymore?

[YLGuy]

This so hits home.  I think you covered it for me.

[Restorer]

Why can't I walk fast anymore?

Exactly. When I'm not doing so well and having a bad day, I walk slowly and get tired easily. On a good day, I can climb a flight of stairs carrying a box of fluid quickly with no problem. On a bad day, I have to stop to rest halfway through the supermarket.

[Des]

Why am I so cross at a complete stranger because I don't agree with his thoughts and believes?
Why am I "round in the face hands and feet" but not fat?
Why do I feel like death warmed up but "look" healthy.
Why do I hate all the food I eat and love the food I'm not allowed to eat?
Why do I have time to exercise but no energy to do so?
Why do hair and nails look like those of a 102 year old?
Why do I love to shop but get tired too quickly to enjoy it?
Why do all the ugly shoes fit me so comfortable and all the nice once pinch the daylights out of me?
Why do I love all the things I can't afford?
Why do the nicest foods taste like drain cleaner and cardboard box?
 

[peleroja]

I can relate to some, but not all.  Every month when they ask me how's my appetite, I tell them I would cheerfully kill to lose my appetite!  In the nearly 6 years I've been on dialysis, I've never lost my appetite.  Maybe it's because as a fat person I've always had a healthy appetite (well, not necessarily "healthy," but at least a good one!).  I also try not to dwell on my "shortcomings."  Every night as I drift off to sleep (thanks to Ambien), I ask myself what I accomplished that day.  Sometimes it was nothing more than getting out of bed and managing to do my midday exchange.  Other days I washed the dishes, did laundry, rode my bike, etc.  I have good days and not so good days; I never have "bad" days. 

[paris]

Peleroja, I had someone tell me to make a list at the end of the day of the things I did that day. #1, got out of bed. #2 took a shower, etc.  So, I agree with your drifting off to sleep thoughts.  It is too overwhelming to make a list of things to do, and not see anything crossed off.   

I have no appetite. Nothing sounds good or tastes good.  I try to eat some yogurt, eat some protein,but some days it is too much effort. 

Des, you made a good list!  I agree with almost all of it!