Back in the hospital

Who was the guy that said things come in 3's?? How many times?

My dad volunteered to come check the fluids in my car yesterday morning and I was out of brake fluid, or there was very little in the bottom of the holder, OMG. After he filled it up, I went for a test drive around the block and my brakes are exactly the same, so it's parked again. If I was completely out of fluid, wouldn't I need to bleed my brakes now---wouldn't there be air in the brake lines?? Anyone mechanically inclined? It makes sense to me so tomorrow I'll ask my brother to come by.

I talked to his heart doc yesterday and he said that Mikey's endocarditis is NOT any better---NOT getting smaller like I was told. It's a 2 cm vegetation on his mitral valve and he's got so much calcification on the valve that he "isn't a good candidate for surgery". He said that even if they replaced the valve, he's got too much calcification and it wouldn't work. This surgery would save his life and I'm so confused right now!! He told me he would talk to a cardiac surgeon and have him go over the test results and give his opinion. Also, M's nephrologist came back from vacation today, it was his first time seeing him since Thursday last week. I told him what the cardiologist told me yesterday and the first thing he said was----he doesn't know Mike---my thoughts exactly!! He said that we all need to sit down and discuss the options. They all agree that he needs this surgery to stay alive but they differ as to if he should. This is very typical, it's rare when I see two doctors agree and it's always something important.

The nurses have been testing M's ability to breathe with less help from the machine and every time, he gets agitated and start gaging. He was pretty restless and has tried pulling the tube out of his mouth so they put restraints on his wrists. His stats didn't go down much during the test and so they pulled out the tube. (right in front of me) Within minutes, he settled down and slept. One thing that is bothering me and Dr H (neph) is that his sedation was turned off and he still didn't come out of it. He's got a blank stare and isn't responding to the doctor, he will look at him but I don't think he is seeing him. Dr H ordered a CT of his brain and I should know the results of that tomorrow.

I am feeling a little more optimistic today since I talked to Dr H, he and I both have witnessed Mikey getting to the edge of that cliff and come back, more than once so I know he will fight for Mike to get THE best care and treatment.
As for me, I am one tired out, worn out, brain fogged sore and achy woman---the 'sore and achy' part isn't that bad though, must be all the good and sincere wishes I got from you'all----THANK YOU!! It's nice to come to a place where people understand what I'm going through right now.

Marley