Hi, Joan, and
My husband is also on the NxStage, so I know how you feel. I also learned to get over my needle fears at age 60.
Don't worry about the buttonholes. Mike still has some pain and we've been using blunts for months. Almost all patients do occasionally have to go back to the sharps. Just keep trying the blunts periodically until they go in. I have found that it does sometimes take a good bit of pressure to get into the buttonholes. As long as you aren't missing the fistula or going through the back side, you're probably fine.
I can sympathize with the ignorance at your unit. Our unit only has 5 patients on the NxStage, and we appear to know about the machine than anyone at the unit does.
If it weren't for this site we might not have gotten a NxStage so I understand about learning here. We did too.