Sandi, Welcome to IHD! So sorry you are going threw this. It can be an overwhelming disease, and so hard on you, especially the shock of it all. Like Aleta, I too am taking care of husband who has this disease. He was diagnosed in 2004 and it flipped our world upside down. But as time went on, he just accepted his situation and we both just settled down with the fact! It actually got much better for us to deal with. It has become a part of our lives! Things are much smoother now!
Has anyone told you of your options: Transplant, PD, Home Hemo or Incenter. Just try to settle down and take deep breathes. Nothing you or anyone else can change what has happened, so just live with it the best you can. Learn all you can about your disease! Knowledge is power, and you want to know all there is to know about your disease!
I know that when J was diagnosed, he nor I really knew nothing about it, and had to learn along the way. It was so very difficult at first but over time it will get more routine. Just read other posts on here and have BF read with you. There is a section for caregivers too, that has really helped me alot!
So sorry you are going through this! And Welcome to this site with people who know and understand what you are dealing with.
lmunchkin