G'day Shay & Welcome to IHD. I also have a friend that calls herself Shay, short for Shereen (no not sure how that links up, but anyway)....
I'm sure it's a daunting time for you what with fistula surgery coming up and then the prospect of dialysis. Hopefully we can help you along the way. This place is great because the medicos can only tell you so much - with few and far exceptions none of them have been through this or really know what it is like, how you feel etc, so hopefully our experiences and combined wisdom (such as it is!) can help you get a better idea of what you're facing and what to expect, and hopefully to be able to face it with understanding and a sense that YOU are in control of your life and your treatments - and not them.
RichardMEL, Moderator