Mamanan, are you receiving dialysis via a catheter at the moment? Are they pretty hopeful that your fistula will mature in time? My mom had a catheter for 18 months because it took that long for her to find herself to a good enough vascular surgeon who could create an upper arm fistula. She is in her early eighties and has been on dialysis for 5 years now with a fistula that is a work of art! (Truly, her surgeon took a photo of it, he was so proud!) So, hang in there!I got my fistula done last week and I am hoping it will mature OK. How are you feeling? You've had some really hard knocks, haven't you? Is dialysis at least making you feel better?Welcome to this site; there are so many people here who are knowledgable and supportive.