My Family

[southyard]

when I wrote easrlier I mentioned that I wanted to quir dialysis as I was being a drag on my Wife and family. They had all been informed earlier that I did not want to end up in a nursing home. Now dialysis has me right next door.  Earlier I mentioned that I would kill my self soon.  After a deep discussion with my dr and the social worked I spelled out my plan.  I have had to delay that option due to the financial situation on Wall street.  Dialysis is not really helping me and they want me to increase my time by 30 minutes. I refused this but did settle for 10 minutes.

After I find out in dece,ber where my wife will stand with my pensions I willo make the final decision.  Since she would be very distraught caring foer me at home we have settled on my going to a hospise for my final weeks.  I have been organizing all my affairs accordingly and they are all at ease with them.

Botgh my DW and I have willed our bodies to the Medical College of WI so all funeral and cremation expenses are covered.. I know that some on here will think me batty  but I am me and will always be that way

Should I not write again I wish all of you the best. Live your life to fullestand enjoy what the LORD has provided us with

[G-Ma]

It's wise of you to take the time to make sure everything is in order.  That's also what my 2nd husband did when we knew death was close...we just had an evening of coffee and candlelight, I wrote and he talked and then we had all the signatures done.  Actually very peaceful for us althought he had nothing to leave anyone except his art, buckle and knife collection but he named people that he wanted to have each piece,  at least he got to do that and the pieces are all scattered among my family members so I still get to see them at times and the kids all had their chance at closure too.  I don't think you are being crazy at all, just very thoughtful.  I'm also getting things "in order" basically because I don't ever want my kids to have to rearrange their lives to fix my end.  I just need to make arrangements to donate my body as I want done.  My family knows how I feel about quality of life and I think I will feel better living life once I have all this in order.
Thank you southyard for giving us your time that you have.
Ann

[flip]

Not for me, Southyard. I will fight until the bitter end. I love life too much.

[monrein]

Southyard, thank you so much for taking the time to include us in the process you're going through.  It's always a good idea to get things in order and also to keep talking to your family as well as your doctor and social worker about where you're at with your decision.

I wish you all possible peace and am very happy to have met you here. 

[Ang]

thank  you  southyard  for  including  us  in  your  decision  making,good to  get  all  your  affairs in  order,i  wish  you  peace  and  harmony  in  your  journey  going  forward

[Joe Paul]

I respect your decision, and pray you will not suffer if you do decide to go through with hospice, and death. Peace to you and your family, glad you joined us here, will see you one day in glory. Take care and if I don't see you post again, God bless you and yours 

[willieandwinnie]

southyard you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I respect the decision you have made for yourself and hope when my time comes I'll do it with the foresight you have. Thank you for letting us know and God Bless you and your family. 

[Sluff]

I'm sad that you have had to make a decision like this. May you find peace in your decision and thank you for taking the time to let us know.

Godspeed my friend. 

[paris]

Southyard, thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.  You sound at peace with your decision.  Our prayers are with you as you come to the end of one journey and begin another.  May you be surrounded by those who love you.   

[Bajanne]

I am very touched by your care and concern for others at this time.  May you have peace in your decision.  Please know that our caring thoughts and prayers are with you all the way.

[Romona]

I think you are very brave and honest. You explored your options and made a choice that is right for you.

This couldn't have been easy on you and your family. Love and Peace to you. 

[kellyt]

Southyard, thank you for coming here and sharing your story and thoughts.  We all learn from each other and I'm sure your posts will help someone who might also be struggling with that terribly difficult decision.  You're a blessing on this earth and you will be missed.   

[pelagia]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.  Thank you for being a part of the IHD family.