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Off-Topic => Off-Topic: Talk about anything you want. => Topic started by: goofynina on December 21, 2007, 09:37:43 PM
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Here it is, Friday night, everything is fine, hubby at work, house is clean, music playing, i got my scissors, my tape, my wrapping paper and name tags, i am good to go, then, as i sit down and start getting ready to wrap my gifts, friends and family members that have passed away came to my mind and then the thought entered my mind "I wonder if this is going to be my last Christmas" and i bursted out into tears, nothing i could possibly do could help me, now i am in this funk of a mood and dont know how to shake it, so what do i do? i come here, to where i know someone could understand what i am saying, i guess i could just use a hug right about now and there is no one here to give me one so i went to the next best thing. HUG ME SOMEONE PLEASE :cuddle;
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{{{BIG HUGS!!!}}} :cuddle;
You'll make me cry too. :waving;
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:grouphug; i hope you feel better soon :grouphug;
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Oh honey. Big hugs to you. I wish i could hang out and help you wrap.
xoxo
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Thank you all so much, brought a smile to my face and that is a big improvement, believe me ;) I hate when shit like this messes with my mind and throws me off schedule, lol, (at least that is what i am blaming) Just gonna say some prayers and get the wrapping started, just do what i can do then i am going to bed, have a big day tomorrow (and night) Just know this, I Love you all :grouphug; ;)
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:grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle;
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:grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug;
Amanda :waving;
xxooxx
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:cuddle; I know exactly how you feel Goofy. I always have that in the back of my mind. For the last three years I have tried to make it "the best Christmas ever" for my kids..... just in-case it's the last one. I buy way too many presents. I don't even discuss this with my husband. Christmas has always been like that in my house. Growing up with a sick Dad, we always appreciated the time we had. I am really trying to throw the feeling too.
So {{{{HUGS}}}} all round! :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug;
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** BIG HUGS**
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{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ smoooooch}}}}}}}}}}} >:D :oops; you said hugs {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ hugs }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} oh well you know I meant well.
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:cuddle; :cuddle; :-* :-* :cuddle; :cuddle; :-* :-*
Anne
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goofynina
:cuddle; I hope you are feeling better. We would all give you a big :grouphug; in person if we could. Hopefully this cyber :grouphug; and :-* will let you know we all care. :snowman;
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I don't get emotional about possibly it being the end for me, I get emotional about the people that have already left us, especially my mum :'(
For all the happiness Christmas Brings, it also brings sadness for me :( Cause it can never be the same without her :'(
Goofy I'm joining the hugs, looks like we need one :grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle; :grouphug; :cuddle;
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Goofynina, wishing you all the positive thoughts you can muster. You are too sweet and I am sorry this has come over you. I know it can get tough but try and think happy thoughts about all your loved ones. It works for me. Merry Christmas to you...Boxman
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:cuddle; :cuddle; :cuddle; :cuddle; :cuddle; :cuddle; xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox
EDITED: Fixed cuddle icon error - Sluff/ Admin
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Good Morning everyone, THANK YOU for all my wonderful hugs (and even some kisses) oooh la la ::) You guys truly are so absofreakenlutely THE BEST!!! Just wanted to update everyone that i am feeling a little better this morning, i have been busy cooking so no real time to think, and Sam is home so if and when i feel i need a hug, i know he is there :) Thank you all again, you dont know how good you make me feel knowing you all are just a keyboard away, I LOVE YOU :grouphug;
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I'm glad you are feeling better. Lots of hugs are coming your way. :waving; :cuddle; :grouphug;
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Oh Susie, we love you sooooo much! I have moments that I also think "will this be the last time?". Maybe we should all live everyday like it is the last. I am trying to enjoy the Christmas tree, the good times with my family---the usual stuff. I am amazed at how much less I can do this year. Too tired, too much pain to do as much as I normally would do. My son,Adam, yesterday told me not to worry so much--he just wants me to take it easy and enjoy the holidays. No cards sent this year and shopping was limited, but my house smells good, everything looks festive. I love Christmas so I am really going to enjoy each moment of this year----and tomorrow is another day, Scarlett! We will all be here hanging out together in 2008, helping each other cope with this lovely disease. Much love, hugs and good wishes to you and your sweet Sam :cuddle;
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Glad your feeling better Susie have a great Christmas :cuddle;
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:cuddle; :cuddle; :cuddle; goofynina. I am going to have a sad Christmas too. My mom died on Wednesday. Just got home from the funeral tonight. She was really sick and in severe pain for the past couple of weeks. Has been spaced out on morphine for about the last week. I know she is better off and she has no more pain but it is still hard. :(
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:cuddle; :cuddle; :cuddle; goofynina. I am going to have a sad Christmas too. My mom died on Wednesday. Just got home from the funeral tonight. She was really sick and in severe pain for the past couple of weeks. Has been spaced out on morphine for about the last week. I know she is better off and she has no more pain but it is still hard. :(
Del, I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. My mother passed in March of 2006 and I miss her terribly! If you need someone to chat with let me know.
Goofynina, I'm glad you're feeling better. I get that way sometimes and I haven't even started dialysis yet! I'm still in my evaluation phase! I'm not afraid of dieing, but I just don't want it to be painful and drawn out!
Love all you guys and gals! Happy Holidays! :christmastree; :christmastree; :christmastree;
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:grouphug; :cuddle;
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Susie you know you can always lean on us as a group. We all have felt the same way at one time or another., I have been having several months of looking inward. Love ya!
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Del, I am so sorry about your Mother. I know you didn't want to see her suffering, but it is so hard to say goodbye to our parents. I hope your holiday is filled with wonderful memories of your Mom and all you shared. My deepest sympathy to you and your family :cuddle;
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:cuddle; Del, So sorry about your mother. Take care my friend :cuddle;
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del, so sorry for this loss, but know your mother is now pain free and in a better place hun. :cuddle; :grouphug;
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Del, I am sending {{{HUGS}}} to you too for the loss of your Mum. :grouphug; :cuddle;
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Goofynina, try to remember good memories about your loved ones and friends who have passed..Think about
how good it will be to be reunited with all of them. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
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Del, it is so sad to lose a loved one at this time of year. Please know that my prayers are with you and your family.
:'( :'( :'(
Love, Mimi
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My condolences Del :grouphug;
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Sorry about your Mom Del. It gets a little easier in time and I know how you must feel I buried my Mom on my Birthday in 2003. My condolences to you and your family. :grouphug;
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Del, :grouphug; Condolences to you and your family.
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Susie, just checking in to see how you are doing. Take care and Merry Christmas. :santahat;
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Awww Goofy. I am so glad you're a bit better today, but I'm sorry you were so blue yesterday! I have the same thoughts too, is this my last Christmas? I do try to not dwell on it, which sure can be hard some times!!! We love you, and I am so glad you're better today, especially with Sam (the hunk!!!) at home with you!!! :grouphug; :grouphug;
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Only just came upon this thread - back to back dialysis the last two days, and my daughter back home kept me from the computer. Oh girlfriend, you need to call me when you feel like that. Am so glad that you made it over the hump. Thank God for this IHD family!
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Sorry about your Mom Del. It gets a little easier in time and I know how you must feel I buried my Mom on my Birthday in 2003. My condolences to you and your family. :grouphug;
I buried my mother the day after my birthday. We held off one extra day because of it. When we were at the doctor's office doing her surgical consult and stuff (brain tumor surgery) it was early Feb. I said to my mom and brother " Let's not schedule her surgery around anyone's birthday incase something happens". I guess I was forseeing her death a little. My brother said "Oh that doesn't matter. We can celebrate on a different day". He thought I meant that if something happened to her it would interupt the "party". That was so not what I meant!!!!! Anyway, she passed on March 2nd and my birthday was March 6th. I was so bummed.
Sorry for high-jacking the thread....
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Del, i am so sorry for the loss of your mother and may God help you find comfort soon :angel;
Thank you again everyone, my Christmas with my family was excellent :2thumbsup; And i must tell you, even though i had my family around me, screaming kids, music, laughter, all the wonderful things that go along with a Merry Christmas, I had all of you in my thoughts, just thinking how lucky i am to have such awesome friends and the support here on the site and awesome friends and family here at home, i am really really Blessed :bow;. Thank you all for understanding where i was and what i needed and why, thank you for letting me know that i am not alone with these thoughts of mine. Merry Christmas to you all, With much love to each one of you always... :santahat; :grouphug;
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Glad you are feeling better goofynina. We all have days when we feel down. Good to have somewhere you can vent. :cuddle;
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Susie, what on earth were you thinking, damn right you'll be hear next year and the next,and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next
You get the picture now? :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug; :grouphug;
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:grouphug; for Susie and Del both. My dad died in September, and I was doing fine until I started making the chocolate fudge that was his favorite part of Christmas. Realizing that he wasn't going to get any this year made me start crying. Whoever ended up with the first batch got extra salt in theirs. The holidays make us all miss those we love even more. ..