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Introduction => Introduce Yourself => Topic started by: leafsunbear on March 12, 2007, 12:50:05 PM
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I am introducing myself here because I would like to start participating on this site. If the rules say I should intro myself then here it is.
My mom calls me her free spirit. I have been through many different stages, or phases if you will, in my life. I have taken from each of those places something and held on to it. I was into skate punk when I was a little kid, not even teenage yet. I still to this day have that little punk rocker in me. Before that my mom had me into the beetles(pre drug days) and other oldies. I still love all those good old oldies to this day. After the punk thing I went hippy, WTF? happened there. I am not totally sure how that took place. Maybe it had something to do with something I was smoking >:D It was easy though for me to get into the greatfull dead. I had listened to tons of country growing up in Arkansas. I always liked bluegrass and folk anyways. So it was really no surprise that I would one day end up driving a '71 VW Van and on tour with the greatfull dead. Then I was about to turn eighteen and I decided I would stay in San Francisco, ca. I tried to get jobs and couldn't seem to get it together. My van had broke down sometime before this. I had actually been hitch hiking around for a bit. I had gone to a Rainbow Gathering in Wyoming and crystal digging in Arkansas. I had all I needed to live on my back. I had a little one man bivouac tent and a nice sleeping bag, some clothes, a small camp stove, a journal, and a nice roll out mat to cushion the place I slept. I could go anywhere and be happy to my hearts content. Still I was young and in the last stages of ESRD and didn't know it. I was a little crazy in other words. In SF I met some good people that helped me out. I got food stamps and G.A.( general assistance ). One morning I woke up at a friends house and my eyes were swollen shut and I couldn't walk. My friend called 911 and got me to the ER at General hospital, yes the one from the soap opera. MY BP was 270/190 and I was told that I didn't have much time left. They gave me a phone and told me I could anywhere I wanted. That I needed to get things in order if I could. Well I made it through the night. The next day I had my first of over 30 IJ catheters placed. I started hemo with the IJ and got lined up for my CAPD catheter placement. I started pd found a place to live on the Russian River north of SF. I got in to electronic music, trance and techno stuff. I also got big into beatless ambient music. I started going to raves and got really into the Rave scene. Then I was brought into the Psy/Goa trance scene. This was way different then the Rave scene. The people were a bit older and there intentions were more clear. They were like me in many ways. Dancing was about communing with each other and are ancestors. I have always loved the teachings of Black Elk. Read Black Elk speaks if you ever get the chance. It's not a very big book either. Also I had been leaning toward Hinduism ever since I was about 13. When I was 13 I was vegetarian. I was in a place where that was not all that accepted. One of the counselors was vegetarian too though. He gave me a book about Hinduism to help me understand the spiritual aspects behind being a vegetarian. I really connected with the Hindu faith. When I was first on dialysis I was having complications. I was in the hospital and the doctors weren't sure I would be leaving anytime soon or even at all. One night this Indian woman came in my room. She was all dressed in dark blues silks with gold and just a beautiful short mama. She said to me," Do you know Ganesha?". I answer," Yes I know of him.". She then said that if I prayed to him he would remove my obstacles. That night I prayed to Ganesha. I asked him to take this hurdle down. That I could not get over it and if he could help me I would be devoted to him for life. I left the hospital just a few days later and my devotion has grown ever since. He is by my side in every thing I do. He guides me and he cuddles me in his love and blessings. He is all I know of the Hindu deities really. I see Shiva dancing at my crown Chakra, but I am not that much aware of his presence unless I am working my Chakras. Today I am doing Nocturnal Home Hemo on the NxStage machine. I have Crohn's disease and Osteopenia now. Both of these are very terrible and I hate that I have them. I am blessed though. I have wonderfull people everywhere that love and care for me. I am a level two Reiki practitioner. I am going for my Lightarian Source Ray attunment tonight. I have a wonderfull connection with the quartz crystals from Arkansas. I was born in Hot Springs, Ar. So it is no surprise that the crystals love me, we are family. Lately I have become more new agey. I am letting go of my old Newtonian self. I am skipping Einsteinian and moving straight on to Quantum physics. The world is not at all how most people see it. Most of us haven't even moved into Einsteinian thinking. We are still stuck in Newtons law of physics. With that I close my intro. It has been long and revealing. thank you and good night....
LSB
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Fantastic Introduction,
Welcome leafsunbear,
Glad you made it here to IHD, it's good to have you here.
I will be looking forward to your involvement at what ever capacity you decide, no pressure here but things happen fast around here so you'll want to visit regularly.
Sluff, Administrator
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welcome leafsunbear, that was a very interesting introduction...took me back to the 60's i hope to see more of your posts and i would like more insight into Hinduism if at all possible.
again welcome and enjoy your stay in this wonderful place
peace,
Rolando
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Welcome to our community. This is just the place to be for anyone facing this renal challenge. We have lots of posts to read. So keep reading and keep posting.
Bajanne, Moderator
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Welcome Leafsunbear, Amazing introduction indeed. It sounds like you have such a free spirit inspite of all that is going on in your life (health wise) You keep on keepin on and i look forward to hearing more from you soon. I'd love to see pics of your many journeys if you have any :thumbup;
Goofynina/Admin
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I wondered if you would ever wander on over here! Good to see you! Welcome to the site!
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nice to meet you, and Keep On Truckin' :thumbup;!
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:welcomesign; Leafsunbear to the community!
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Welcome leafsunbear, good to have you aboard.
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:welcomesign;
Joanna
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Welcome to our community!
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Groovy.
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Cool intro. :welcomesign;
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Thanks for the warm welcome. I am recovering from a deep fistula placement on the 13th. They had to go to the bone for a good vein. They had all ready tried four times on the same arm with no luck. This one is thrilling away and all looks good for now. We will see in six to eight weeks. Cross your fingers, cause I really need this one to work. My perm cath has been in over a year.. thanks again for the welcome.
LSB
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:waving; HI!
I hope your fistula works well. My daughter's took a few months to develop but worked great until her transplant.
Welcome here!
Karol
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All I have to say is "Ouch"! I am glad you are doing okay now!